I fell in love with a boy.

chapter 3: accepting who i really am

Zayn's POV:

"I'm pretty sure Mum said Niall clearly out loud" My face slackened, my brows furrowed wondering and scared at the same time how Mum knows about Niall.

"ZAYN! Where's Niall? What are you doing there staring into blank space? You're acting weird today." Mum said impatiently.

As soon as Mum finished her sentence, the door bell rang. Mum clearly opened the door, and there's Niall, the most flawless looking guy I've ever seen. He can't even be compared to Zac Efron or Adam Levine, and yes that's how amazing he looks in my eyes. My heart never fails to flutter when I see him. I looked at him into his eyes, and there he is staring back at me right in the eyes. It felt more than that, it felt like he stares into my soul. It felt like the world is focusing on me at this moment. It felt like.. I can't think of the word.. Yes it's love.

"This is Niall Horan from Ireland so I suppose you already know. And this is Zayn Malik, my baby boy. From today onwards, Niall will be living in your room Zayn. He's our tenant. Make sure you treat him well!" Mum said sternly.

"Yes, Of course!" I beamed. Mum stood back and folded her arms. She was pleased. It was apparent from the momentary smile that appeared on her face. Niall then put his arms around my shoulders, acting like we're the best buds ever. My heart swelled. I felt happiness. How easily he made me smile and being all happy to myself is simply amazing. I can ensure myself it was love.

As I laid on the bed, thinking about all the things and moments that happened to me and Niall, I smiled every time.

As I thought, I realized I've already overcome my fear of being gay. I've learnt to accept for who I am and who I truly is. For the past 17 years in my life, I've been dating girls. I tried to be like what everyone is, being straight but I was wrong because being truly who I am makes me happier than I imagined. Denying and not being able to accept that I'm gay made me unhappy for the past years, I felt different today. Is it a fresh start? Is everything going to change?

As I recalled how our eyes met, how cute his Irish accent was, how he put his shoulders around me. I feel special. This indeed felt different than all those chicks I dated. Each and everyone of the single little things he did made me feel special. But me liking him doesn't mean that he likes me too... But all I ever want to do is to protect him from any harm and making sure that he's happy. I want to be the reason why he's happy in school. I want to be the reason why he smiles everyday. I want to be his everything. I want him go good my hands in the mall and make everyone jealous. But now I'm just nothing to him. And also people always avoid people like me: playboys. How am I suppose to make him fall for me...

Niall's POV

So today I met Zayn. He seems like a pretty cool dude. HIS HAIR IS ALWAYS ON THE POINT! but why does seeing him makes my heartbeat increase, it's so weird. I've never felt this way before not even when Camila and I shared that kiss the other day. Oh! It seems like I've never told anyone about Camila yet. After erasing everything about Zayn on my mind, I thought of Camila. She's an amazing girl. Someone more goofy than romantic. A girl who would throw stuff toys at me when I'm acting dumb. Someone who would bet me kisses that she could beat me at all the old play station games and then let me win just to make me happy. A girl who would make fun of me just to hear me laugh. She'd play with my hair all the time and surprise me with 25cents ring. Someone who I could share lollipops with and lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We'd buy tons of disposable cameras just to take the silliest picture of us, and most importantly someone who would be my girlfriend and will never break my heart. She would just always make me smile.

💘 I swear you guys hate me to he core because of those Namila moments meh. But there's still more coming up! Featured @camnarry on Twitter because she allowed me to use her name as Niall's girlfriend. Tune in for more because there'll be a passionate kiss going on next chapter :-) 💘