Death Incorporated (Book 1)

Chapter 19- Nothing Left To Repair

"Oh no..." Vinny gasped a few moments later before I heard a thud as his knees gave up on him.

Justin stayed silent before he punched the wall as hard as he could, falling against the wall while the tears fell. "He can't be dead..." Justin said softly, shaking his head.

Ryan helped me stand up and the others followed, wiping their eyes before we all clung onto each other with shaking arms. "W-we should say goodbye..." Ryan said softly, a few moments later after we all managed to compose ourselves.

I didn't wanna say goodbye. That only makes it more real. Saying goodbye makes it permanent and I don't want it to be forever, I need him in my life. Already, I feel numb and empty without him, so how am I gonna feel in a few days or weeks?

I was torn apart. I'd lost my best friend, and I'd lost my boyfriend. All because I didn't listen, I should've tried to convince Lucien to give someone else the mission, I didn't want to lose Chris or Devin. In the end, I lost them both. And I blamed myself.

"I wanna go first..." I was one of the closest to Chris, I wanted to say goodbye the way he'd want, and first because I love him too much. They all nodded at me and I faked a smile before standing in front of Chris. Someone, probably Lucien, had changed his clothes so he was wearing his suit. At least he wasn't in bloodstained clothes anymore.

I took a deep breath before I began.

"I miss that look in your eye,
How your body felt on mine.
Remember everything,
I remember everything.

I'm saying sorry again,
Cause it's you I can't forget.
There's something more to this,
I know there's something more to this...

Would you bleed for me,
Like I'd bleed for you.
Would you tear your heart open,
Tell me the truth.

Would you bleed for me,
Like I'd bleed for you.
Even if I was broken,
Broken like you.

I miss the taste of your lips,
Feeling your breath on my skin.
Remember everything,
I remember everything.

I hope one day things can change,
Cause you're worth all of the pain.
I keep on holding on,
I just keep on holding on..."

I managed to choke another chorus out, tears rolling down my face as I sung goodbye to Chris, hoping that wherever he was, he could hear me and know how I was feeling.

"Somebody save me...
I feel like I'm on my own,
Even when I'm alone with you.

Somebody save me...
When you hold me in your arms
I don't know if I belong with you..."

I managed to finish the song, moving onto Another Life.

"If I can't let you go,
Will darkness divide?
For the fiction of love,
Is the truth of our lives.

We were playing for keeps,
But we both knew the cost.
Now the only way out's in
Your heart shaped box.

But I hate that it seemed
You were never enough.
We were broken and bleeding
But never gave up.

And I hate that I made you the enemy,
And I hate that your heart was the casualty.
Now I hate that I need you.

As we rest here alone
Like notes on a page
The finest to compose
Could not play or pain.

With the candle through time,
I can still see your ghost.
But I can't close my eyes for it..
For it is there where you haunt me most.

But I hate that it seemed
You were never enough.
We were broken and bleeding
But never gave up.

And I hope that I sing through your memory
As we argue through time in the melody.
Now I hate that I need you..."

I bent down after I finished the song and pressed my lips to his. Those songs probably described this situation perfectly. "I don't hate that I need you..." I whispered, even though I'd finished the song. I knew how much Chris likes singing, so why not sing to say goodbye?

"Chris, I'll always miss you. I'm so sorry, it's all my fault. But, fuck. You made me happy, you gave me a reason to be me again. You're my entire world, nothing will feel right without you here. I don't know what I'll do without you, I love you do fucking much a-and..you'll always be in m-my heart."

Ryan squeezed my shoulder as I stepped back to the others, smiling sympathetically at me. "That was beautiful." He whispered softly before he took a step closer to Chris.

"Chris, where do I start? I'd be nowhere without you, I wouldn't know any of these guys. I wouldn't be the person who I am today. I don't have the faintest idea if you can hear me or not, but I don't care. Fuck, I love you man, you're always gonna be my best friend. It's not gonna be the same without you..." Ryan whispered, his emotions getting the best of him.

When he stood next to me again, we cried silently in each other's arms, Justin holding us both as Vinny took his turn.

"I wish I was in your place instead. I don't want you to be dead, but it's not like I have a choice. I'll miss you forever, I hope you know that we all love you and we always will. I hope everything is okay until we eventually join you because then it will rock. Miss you man...so fucking..fuck. So much." Vinny said, wiping his eyes and smiling softly.

And then it was Justin's turn.

"Man, where do I start? I don't know why this happened. But I swear I'll destroy him for what he's done. You were the best of us all, and I know that one day, you'll see us all again. Probably soon, so don't worry. Love you man...and we'll see you soon. I promise."

"How touching." Lucien said with a sly smirk, covering Chris' body up before he looked at the four of us, crying like babies. "W-w-what?" Justin growled through his weak sobs, probably glaring at Lucien's smirk.

"I can bring him back."

WHAT!?
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