REVERIE

Love, the one that makes or breaks.

I think the unhappiest love that we can ever experience is not the type of love that was never given back mutually, but rather a love that there was a person who was once there to love you, but now holds back, hesitates, and suddenly changes.

We can still reminisce the first day you saw each other. It was all butterflies and adrenaline rush. This might be too hilarious to say, but we almost cling to the the idea of, “He is the one." or "She is the one."

We also have thought that they are already the answer of our prayers. Days passed, everything went well. Every single day, every other hour, or even every minute, we always say to them the line, "I love you." The reason? It's for them to feel and know how we truly love them.

They become the person whom we thought who would stay everlastingly with us. The least individuals whom we thought as people who would dare to hurt us. And, again, there’s no denying that.

You two are now together. Everything seemed to be so perfect. The kisses, hugs, and the sweet messages were all over the place.

Regardless of how many times you heard their messages, regardless of how many times you were hugged and sent blizzards of kisses, it felt as if it was the very first time—even if it’s not. Unbelievable, right?

Well, of course, it was not happy all the time; you really had to go into challenges that tested your faith with each other.

For an instance, if there is a “petty” jealousy that will arise, it will just take an hour or a two to miss that special person once again, and after just a “lambing” or a simple caress
from your lover, everything will just simply turn fine, and gets back to normal. Childish, I know. But, admit it, it’s cute. It flutters your heart.

For once, don’t forget those sleepless nights for staying up so late at 3 AM, and just talk about this world’s strangeness and randomness.

The next morning, there are bags and dark circles on each eye for the both of you. We know it’s making one’s face horrible, but the story behind those bags is certainly rewarding in the feeling. For you know it was worth it.

But those are just some of the things that happened before. It is happy. It was happy.

Now, the person who fought lots of battles with you back then using the sword you both use to fight monsters, is using the same sword against you.

Now, the sweetest words you had exchanged before were replaced with harsh words that cut way deeper than a knife.

Now, the relationship was questioned, and instead of smiles, it was altered by cries.

Now, instead of love, it was devoured by hatred. And instead of respect, it was also replaced by selfishness.

It’s funny. But it can be so cruel.

Funny how love can make human being be the best and cruel version of themselves.

That love can be everything, but sometimesz it is not the type that makes—it is the one that breaks.

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