May Fifth

Prologue

Life was never easy for me. I was always frightened and paranoid, scared for my own life .But somehow I always found a way to get up every other day and fight.

As life showed me that my life wasn’t worth living over and over again I somehow always managed. I don’t know how and I don’t know why but I always did and it didn’t sit well with other people that I did.

Sometimes I wonder if there is someone out their laughing at all my slip ups and relishes at my failures and burned in anger at my rise.

But as much as I would love to paint a picture of a girl that was totally headstrong and had everything under control, that isn’t who I am.

I am weak and a lot people had to pay the price for my weakness.

I have fallen a lot of times and the only reason I managed to get right back up was because I used others backs as a stepping stone.

So as you can see the problem wasn’t with the times I could get up it was when I couldn’t.

I am a naturally unlucky person almost nothing goes my way. And in the process of trying to find myself out the maze that my life is I lose myself in it.

My life was not a walk in the park nor is it a rollercoaster. It’s a car ride and I’m in the drivers sit. I have my seatbelts buckled sitting on my comfy chair.
The car starts moving and unexpectedly takes a turn and that scares me shitless and kicking me in a hyper mode. I try to take my hands turn the wheel but i suddenly realise that my hands aren’t on the wheels but strapped together behind me. I panic and try to press the breaks but soon realise that it’s broken. I start to hyperventilate and try to get of the car and as I try to detach the seatbelts it doesn’t budge.
I soon realise that the car was starting to speed up heading straight at a wall made of red bricks that has suddenly appeared in the middle of the road.

A few seconds before the accident that was sure to be my end I accept that I’m going to die and close my eyes waiting for impact.

At the last minute I realise that the expected crushing sensation didn’t come and as I open my eyes I see that the wall has suddenly vanished with everything around it and I was in a desert this time. A barren land with nothing for miles and miles.

In a fraction of seconds I have been transferred from one nightmare to another. And I had no control over it and i could never leave because I am strapped to the car seat and I have no other option but have a front row seat to the next show that had me as its lead.

And so this may passes and the car starts again leading me to the next.

Ok let me explain. I’m cursed and it’s not to become a shining vampire or to be beast bound to the moon. I am cursed to die. You may think since we are all mortals that we are all going to die eventually, I know that and that isn’t what I mean .I mean I am cursed to die at specific time of the year. Well at least that is what i think.

Do you know the saying ' first time it’s an accident, second time it’s a coincidence, third time is a pattern '.yeah well I learned that the hard way!

I have had a series of unexplainable accidents that could all have been my end but somehow I had survived all of them. Well barley.

I had a cursed day a special day that no matter how spent means I almost die or someone around me dies.

And those days always came on May fifth .Don’t ask me why I don’t know myself. Every year on May five I go through one of the worst days of my life.
Granted that when you hear my story you will know that all my days are almost the worse day of my life but you’ll also know that it can get much worse than that.

Accidents and troubles that I got into when i was younger were much easier, tolerable; but as I grew older the worse they got.