𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐑

❥₁₂ 𝐂𝐔𝐓

The sharp blade you shakily held in your hands
but you kept repeating
"do it"
"no don't"
it was a mess
it actually felt like someone was controlling you.
You were lost in a word that didn't exist and you were numb yet sore
you kept replaying the first time they had shit talked about you
then the 2nd and the 3rd and all the other times
The blade slowly went down to your arms
and made a tiny cut
but it didn't hurt
it felt good?
So slowly you repeated the action again and again until your wrist was full of those cuts