SOMETHING I COULD NEVER TELL YOU ...
I’m Snow Martinez and this is my story, It’s been almost 7 years since I came back to the Philippines, all my memories suddenly returned.
I remembered when I was an elementary student, how I’ve been bullied until I came in high school.
But it changed when I had a super hero, and that was my best friend King. But before that, king was a transfer student and all my classmates entertained him because he was handsome and all the girls liked him, all of them talked to him except me. Yes, exactly, I didn't talk to him, nasa may bintana lamang ako at tinatanaw ang aming ground.
Wala akong balak siyang kausapin baka pag kinausap ko siya then he'd bully me too like my classmates, I don’t know why all of them hate me, dahil tahimik lamang ako? Pangit? And hindi ko pinapakita yung mukha ko? Yes yung mga buhok ko ay always nakatabun sa mukha ko dahi nahihiya akong ipakita ito, feel ko kasi hindi ako maganda.
I stand up dahil mag ccr lamang ako ng bigla akong patidan ng isa kong kaklase na babae at napadapa ako sa harapan ni King.
All of my classmates laughed at me except King, he helped me to stand up at pinagpagan yung braso ko.
“Are you ok?” tumango lamang ako ng may biglang sumigaw na kaklase ko, “Hey king don’t touch her, she’s a monster” sabay tawa lamang ng kaklase ko, he didn't hear it when he pulled me out of the room because he saw me crying and he pulled me up to the back of the room where there were chairs and he sat me down.
“Hey stop crying please, you should be able to stand up and become a strong girl and not be affected by what they say to you, you should know who you are.” Naiiyak parin akong tumingin sakanya at siya naka tayo lamang siya sa harapan ko
Dahil hindi ko mapigilan ang aking galit sakanya dali niya lang sabiin yun? “You don't know me and you don't understand how I feel, if you are bullied like me huh, do not say in just words” Hindi ko yon napigilan na sabihin sa kanya at napayuko nalang muli ako at umiyak.
“We're in the same spot, I’ve been bullied too when I was in elementary.” Napa tingin uli ako sakanya na nagtataka. “Be who you are, you know yourself than them so trust yourself,” and that's all reason why we became friends.
At dahil dun iniba ko yung sarili ko nag aayos na din ako ng sarili ko. And all my classmate ay napagulat sa itsura ko.
He was always at my side when I needed him; when it came to my problems, studies, and my life. Mas naging matatag ang aming pagkakaibigan hanggang college kahit nawawalan na kami ng time sa studies naming basta mag kita lamang kami at maka pag bonding lamang.
Hanggang magkakatrabho kami ayun lamang kami nag hiwalay ako na magiging architect at siya bilang isang piloto.
Umalis kami sa aming bansa para sa aming pangarap at ngayun babalik kami dalawa sa Pilipinas dahil magpapakasal na siya.
But before that I had a secret that I never open in him since were senior high
I had a crush on him but I didn't know why I didn't tell him. I was scared to confess to him, I didn't want to break our friendship.
Ngayun na yung araw ng kasal ni King and hindi na muna ako pumunta ng venue dumiritso ako sa room kung saan siya nag reready dahil meron pang isang oras para mag start ang kasal and I’m the maid of honor.
Masigla kong binati siya, “Hey mister King Torres, ikakasala kana ahhh congrats." Nabigla siyang pagpasok ko sa my room kaya niyakap niya rin ako.
“Tangna mo mas lalo kang gumanda kana ahh kamusta yung lovelife natin HAHAH?” panunukso niya sakin sasagot na sana ako ng bigla nag seryoso bigla ang kanyang mukha.
“Snow before ako ikakasal meron akong sasabihin sayo na tagal ko ng ito gustong sabihin kaso natotorpe ako. Thank you for being my friend since high school, before I met kaye, Im sorry to say this but I had feelings for you but I was afraid to tell you cause I was I afraid it would ruin our friendship. So I decided to keep it, I'm sorry if I only told you about it now." Yumuko siya sa harap ko at parang gusto kong magalit sa mundo at sa sarili ko at hindi ko yon sinabi noon pa na may gusto ako saknya.
Niyakap ko siya at gusto ko na rin yung aking lihim ay sabihin sa kanya. “King I have a secret too, I had feelings for you since we were in senior high, same reason I was afraid to lose you and our friendship. I’m sorry King but its too late, I think that we're not meant for each other. We should move on, I think Kaye should be with you and maybe I haven't found my special someone yet."
Kumiwala ako sa pagkayakap niya at napag kasunduan naming mag move on sa isat isa para sa ikakabuti naming dalwa at maging magkaibigan parin.
If you like them you should say it sooner or express your feelings to them.
You might eventually regret it.
Don’t worry that if they might not like you atleast you express your feeling to them.
At least you can try and calm your feelings.
Think carefully before it's too late.
-WAKAS-
