Blind love

giving up on you

Yongi pov/

I'm in my bed listening to music and I can't get the image of jungkook and jimin coming from the trip together holding hands, smiling and happy;  I feel a pain in my chest every time I think  so that they surely made love, Jimin looked shy and sorry, and Jungkook with a sense of possession over him, every time I see the possibility of Jimin giving me a chance most distant.

I feel someone knocking on the door of my room, I hear Jimin's voice, my heart leaps, I immediately open the door, to find the image of Jimin right in front of me, his cheeks have been tanned by the sun, his  hair falls gently on his face and I delicately remove a strand of hair letting it pass to my room

Come on jimin

~ yongi ... I need to tell you something, how you left my apartment so soon I can't tell you with the boys

what is jimin?

~ yongi you have always been my friend, you have always been by my side, we have shared so many things that I don't want that to change, something has happened that makes me very happy, and I hope you can share that happiness with me

you and jungkook made love?  that's what it's about?

~ ummm , we did made love, and it was beautiful but it's something else, jungkook and I will be married , jungkook proposed to me and accept

and then when listening to it it is as if the world fell on me, as if all my hopes went out the window, a pain in my soul, in my chest, the image of the man I love in the arms of another, giving himself to him for  The first time, the image of the ring that he now wears on his finger, a ring that I should have given him a long time ago and that I did not do out of fear and cowardice, how I can prevent my eyes from filling with tears, and it is a relief that Jimin  can't  see how they fall down my cheeks, he takes my hand that is now colder, looking for a word, but the only thing jimin  hear is my sobs

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please yongi tell me something, don't be quiet please don't be mad at me..

Jimin My dear Jimin, I am not angry with you, it is with myself that I am angry, as I would have wanted to confess to you before what I felt for you, how I would have liked to be your first love, but it is too late for that, I know you love jungkook and that he also loves you, I can only wish you happiness, all the happiness in the world, I want you to love intensely, that you smile, that you have someone by your side who is willing to give his life for you ... never think that I am going to change with you, you are still my friend, you can always count on me; and if for some reason things do not go as you imagine, I will be here waiting for you

~ yongi , thank you , You know I love you as a friend, your support is very important to me

He hugs me, I hold him tight against my body, knowing that I am giving up on Him, that I am not going to fight, that I will simply stand aside watching how he makes his life with another man, how he is happy ... and although it hurts More than daggers piercing my chest, I'll smile, because if Jimin is happy, that's all that really matters

everything is fine jimin, now go back to your apartment next to your boyfriend, tomorrow we will rehearse in the studio, rest and sleep well

~ good night yongi, you sleep well too

I see him go out and close the door, as if with it also closed all the roads that took me to his heart, I sit in my bed to cry silently, to cry all the tears that I have in my eyes so that tomorrow i can look at them in the eyes and not spill a drop.