Lovely Flowers (skephalo ;3)

•Not Okay•

(Sorry if a mistake that I make of going in and looking at a chapter sets of a notification sowy Qwq)

~ Zak/Skeppy POV ~

I sit on my bed not knowing what to do with myself. I already announced I won't and can't  record videos. I can't really interact with Bad at all unless I want this Hanahaki thing to progress faster. I usually voice chat with my friends but I can't really even talk at all. Maybe I could help out on my server more.

I logged into my computer opening up Minecraft. The Mojang screen came up the red loading bar getting longer in a few seconds. I clicked multiplayer then double clicked on my server.

My staff were surprised that I actually asked what I could do to help, and actually do work. There were few hackers and most of them got banned by the anticheat. That didn't give me much to do in that area of work, I couldn't really touch a plug-in file. If I dared to even think about coding, the server would most likely shut down over a simple mistake I could make. Really there wasn't much I could do to help.

I ended up going back to sitting on my bed staring at my phone, at things I've already seen but still having nothing better to do. I then got a notification from Bad saying if we could just talk. We haven't talked to each other in a while it was mostly just over texts. My stomach felt as if it suddenly got filled with butterflies. I couldn't speak well and talking to him will make me ten times worse, but I can't say no to him. I reply to get on teamspeak so we can talk.

He was waiting in teamspeak for me. I joined and he moved me to his channel.
You were moved

"Hi Skeppy!" Bad said happily, he must have been trying to cheer me up.
"Hi Bad." I say my voice cracking it sounding very dry and raw.
"Oh my goodness Skeppy! Are you ok?! You don't sound that good..."
"Yeah I'm fine." I lied. As soon as I said that one small lie I couldn't take it. I broke out in a fit of coughing, I couldn't stop it, it felt like I couldn't breath through all the coughing. I dumped what I felt was a wet clump of petals in my hand into the garbage next to my desk.
"Zak?" Bad said. You knew he was serious when he used my real name.
"Are you actually ok?" His words were cold and serious that was not normal. I didn't answer his question though.
"Zak, are you going to answer?" He sounded really concerned saying it this time.
"I don't know..." I reply. I wish I didn't have to answer, I really don't know though if I was ok.
"I'll check in with you later to see how your doing. Got it?" I nod my head but then realized he couldn't see me so I said
"Ok."

He said he would check on me later but I didn't want it. I felt like it would make the disease worse.

-later-

Panic was starting to settle in my chest. Bad didn't specifically say what time his check in was going to be all he said was later. Instead of needing to cough it felt like I had to puke. I ran to the bathroom and hung my head over the toilet. I want describe what went into the toilet but it was not pretty. I'll describe it as vague as I can. There was much much more blood than usual as well as what looked like rose buds and rose petals. I rushed over to the mirror and saw the small amount of blood on the corner of my mouth. I then saw the bags under my eyes and how I looked like sh*t. I felt like sh*t as well, I mean I just coughed up a ton of blood and flower petals. I flushed the toilet and wiped the blood of my face. Great! Now I only look dead inside.

I sat on my bed wondering what to do with myself when my phone started buzzing. Oh my god, I completely forgot about the check in. I quickly picked up my phone and heard Bad's voice.
"Hi Skep! You feeling ok right now?"
"Uh..." I glanced at the bathroom before answering
"Really I'm doing not that great..."
"Oh my goodness! Should I come over?!" I gulped.
"N-no you don't need to do that!" I really didn't want him to see the state I'm in. I also don't want to burden him with my needs... He deserves a better friend.
"Skeppy?" Bad said. I didn't even notice that I zoned out.
"Oh! Sorry, really though, you don't need to come over it's fine. I probably have a stupid cold or something." I said whatever sickness comes into my head first. A cold really shouldn't make me this bad but he believed it.
"Ok, if you say your ok I'll leave you alone for now. I'll check in later though. Bye muffin!" He sounded like such a good friend.

I really don't deserve him...

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I try to write at least 800 words per chapter qwq