moody - lil peep

-8-

ayla pov:

gus and i were driving in the car to wherever our destination was when i got a text

nate🥺:
where'd you go?? i came over but your dad said you left

ayla:
gus wanted to take me somewhere to apologize i guess don't worry i'm good :)

nate🥺:
ok stay safe butterfly

ayla:
you too wasp 🖤

nate and i have kinda been talking a bit ever since the incident with gus. i mean we've flirted a little but it's mostly me ranting about gus and him ranting about this girl maya who he wants to date but she's giving him mixed signals. we pretty much just give each other advice and he probably knows gus the best out of all of us so he can help me the most. he was there when it happened but he apologized for all that "we're here" gus spoke snapping me out of my thoughts.

i look up to where we are. it's the beach, how cliche.

"come on kit- i mean ayla" he corrects himself. i smile forgetting all of our problems but quickly they rush back and i frown.

i sigh and get out of the car. he grabs my hand a pulls us in front of the ocean. he sat down and i followed after him sitting down. i stared into the distance not daring to speak because i knew i would cry. i heard him sigh "i'm sorry" i looked over at him "i know" i responded "please ayla i don't even remember anything" i scoffed "why did you take them" i let the sand run through my fingers "i-i don't know" he stuttered.

i slowly shook my head "are you guys still dating" i asked. he shook his head. i layed my head on his shoulder "i don't wanna fight" i admitted. he didn't respond so i continued "yes i'm mad as fuck and heartbroken but fighting is useless. it's not gonna get us anywhere and it's so tiring. i love you gus truly with my whole heart and seeing you fuck anyone but me hurt like i got hit by a truck. i've never felt this way and seeing you with someone else made me feel like i was worthless. like you've felt this way before and it's nothing new. like you could get these feelings again with someone else. like i was nothing" at this point i was sobbing "look at me" he demanded "i love you" he stared into my eyes

"you mean everything to me and i regret every second that i spent with that girl. i never want to touch anyone but you, you make me feel so amazing. whenever i hear your voice or see your face i immediately become happy. i love you so much and i'm so scared. i'm scared that i'll hurt you or you'll hurt me. i've never felt like this either" i didn't hesitate to pull him into a hug.

i sobbed into his chest while he ran his fingers through my hair.

"i love you"

"i love you"

we heard footsteps behind us "hey gay bitches" luna called out "luna shut the fuck up we're having a moment" i yelled "yeah well moments over come hang out with us" she walked in front of us

"HOMO" mikey yelled running over to us "fuck you skank" i threw sand at him "oh no you don't you little whore muffin"he laughed picking me up off the ground

"GUSS" i yelled laughing as mikey threw me over his shoulder and ran away. i couldn't stop laughing as he ran over to the car and placed me in front of it. i watched as josh walked out of the car "heyyy" he exclaimed "hey joshy" i smiled.

luna and gus ran over to us laughing. i heard another car pull up and makkonen and nate walked out "why the fuck are all these gay homo bitches here now" i laughed "ayla don't even get me started we all know what you and devon did in the bathroom at that party" makkonen exposed