Oh my messy mind ✧°·

I can hear His voice

I can hear His voce calling my name
I can feel Him wanting us
to stay together
even in the worst moments
especially in those moments.
and i perfectly know
that He just want to help me
and stay next to me
in the bad moments.
but i kinda feel like I'm too messed
like i need to fix myself
like I'm not ready to stay with Him
because i know i will let Him down
too many times.
and i don't wanna hurt Him
because i love Him so much
and i think He absolutely doesn't
deserve all of this
but i also know
that He can fix me
better then anyone else.
so I'm just laying here
not knowing what to do
just staying here
and doing nothing
I know i gotta make a decision
and i promise you I'll do my best
to make this decision as soon as possible.