HOMOPHOBIC (JENLISA)

Chapter 44

Jennie's POV

"Jen. You're spacing out again." Rosé bumped my shoulder slightly. I blink for a few times and diverted my eyes towards Rosé who is looking at me worriedly.

"Sorry." I muttered softly and went back on where I was staring before Rosé interrupted.

I instantly regretted that I look once again to where I was looking before. I felt my throat became dry and my heart clench at the sight of Lisa flirting with another girl.

"Whoa. That monkey really turn into something. Imagine, she's flirting with almost different girls every day." Jisoo said.

Lisa didn't appear for the rest of our tour in Jeju. We heard from Ms. Moonbyul that she excused herself for the reason that there's an emergency that she needs to attend to. And of course, Ms. Moonbyul being a considerate teacher, she didn't think twice to believe what she said.

I really thought that Lisa left the country but what happened was worse than I expected. She stayed, which was supposed to make me happy because I'll be still seeing her and I still have the chance to explain everything to her. But I was taken aback when we came back to the university.

Lisa wasn't attending our classes. I thought she was just sick or maybe she needed some space. It didn't take me too long to found out that Lisa already change classes. And the painful part is, every time we met at the hallway, she never failed to give me a cold shoulder and worse, I can always see her flirting with different girls that I'm pretty sure is head over heels to her.

I always find myself chasing after her, begging for her time, begging for her to hear me out. But Lisa never did give me a chance. It seems like she ignored my pure existence. I cannot complain though, I am the main reason why Lisa changed. If only I was just one step ahead, if only... Then maybe,

Lisa is mine already.

"Come on Jen. We will be late." Rosé said and held my hand. I gave her a weak smile and nodded.

I took a one last glance to Lisa and I felt a cold shiver run down to my spine when her eyes met mine. That was the first time that Lisa spare me a single look and I wasn't happy with that.

Why?

Her eyes where blank. Emotionless.

And that was the most painful thing that I've encountered.

"I noticed that you haven't chased Lisa for a while now. Did you already give up, Jen?" Jisoo asked before taking her seat. I took a deep breathe before answering her question.

"No. It's not like that. It's more like, I don't have any choice left." I gave them a weak smile and both of them gave me a warm hug.

"Yah. Stop. You'll make me cry." I joked. The two chuckled and pulled away.

"Rosie. You're still living with that monkey right? Why don't you try to talk some sense to her? I'm pretty sure, Lisa will listen to you." Jisoo suggested.

"I'm always trying, but that blonde has a lot of excuses and she has been coming home late this days." Rosé said.

"What?" Jisoo asked. A hint of surprise was visible to her voice. She and Lisa haven't been able to hangout lately since Jisoo is always with me and Lisa was clearly avoiding me and I can't help but to feel guilty.

"It's true! There was a time that Lisa went home past midnight and she was reeking-" Rosé quickly covered her mouth to stop herself from talking when she noticed how my eyes widened.

Lisa was drinking? Is she drowning herself with alcohol because of me?

I felt my heart tighten because of the fact that Lisa was suffering because of me. I chuckled dryly when I realized how pathetic I am.