My Alpha, My Omega

Chapter 12

Jiwon's POV

"Jiwon..." I heard Hanbin saying quietly, so I looked up from my pizza slice at him, waiting for him to continue.

We met after school to eat something and then maybe go for a walk before going home.

It was a nice day outside and a perfect excuse to have Hanbin breathe a bit of fresh air instead of sitting in his room until the morning.

"Do you... do you mind if I'll ask you something?"

"What is it?" I asked, shaking my head.

He looked a bit nervous. Why is he nervous? Did something happen? Did I do something wrong?

"Are you... um..." Hanbin paused, taking a deep breath. "Are you an alpha or omega...?"

I tensed. This is definitely not good. Am I an alpha or an omega...

Jinhwan was right. I should have told Hanbin earlier. I should have gotten the courage to explain him everything.

And now he's finally wondering about it...

"You don't have to answer." He quickly added. "If it makes you feel uncomfortable. I just... I've been wondering for a while..."

I looked back at my pizza, putting it down. I didn't feel so hungry anymore.

What am I supposed to say? How am I supposed to answer? I can't lie. I don't want to lie to him. It's not the type of relationship I want.

"I... Let's go for a walk..." I said quietly. I need to think about what I'm going to say. I don't want it to come out wrong.

Hanbin nodded, pushing the pizza slice closer to me so I'd eat.

I sighed softly and took it, taking small bites. I don't want to fuck this up.

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"Jiwon..." Hanbin said softly, "really... I don't care if you're this or that."

We finished eating and walked out, finding a close park we could walk it. The less people hear us the better.

But since Hanbin asked me that question, I didn't say a word. I was too busy thinking about what I should say or what I should do that I couldn't keep up with a conversation.

And Hanbin didn't push me to it either, giving me my time.

"Jiwon... It's okay if you want to -"

"I'm... It's not that..." I interrupted, shaking my head. "I just... I really hated it..."

"Jiwon-"

I stopped him again, leading him to a set of swings. Hanbin sighed softly and followed me, sitting on one swing as I sat on the other.

Why is it so hard... ? Why am I shaking? Why Jinhwan and Yunhyeong can be so confident of who they are and I can't?

Why am I such a terrible omega?

"Jiwon..."

"I'm... I'm an omega..." I said quietly, holding tightly into the swing. I hope he won't be disappointed.

I hope he won't hate me.

"Omega... but your scent..." Hanbin said, looking at me. "Are you taking anything?"

I shook his head, taking a deep breath before taking my hoodie off to give it to him. "It's my older brother's clothes... He's an alpha..."

Hanbin took the hoodie from me, sniffing it as he frowned before looking back at me. He looked really confused.