Perfect faith

Chapter one.

The cold wind sweeps across the icy night air unto loner's faces but one face was of a young teen girl with light brown hair flowing down nottedly to the back of her slim figured body at mid length.Confusion fills her thoughts about her father disowning her because of her pregnancy.

Halley's POV

He doesn't even want to look at his own daughter,tears yet flowing down her messy face h..how can I go back when he doesn't even need a worthless human by his side bearing him down.I remember vaguely that day so disturbing so useless than now how I am, that day I felt so sickened within my stomach my heart pounding and burning inside of me how can he be forgiven and he acts so innocent towards me even about everything that took place.I was seventeen when my mother died it was my first day attending senior year at school yet again along with my brother Isahia, it was the last minute in biology before the lunch bell rung then it was announced on the speaker for the two Mase's to urgently come to the office Isahia and I were in the office dumfounded after our father told us of our mother that has had an accident.I remember on our way to the hospital I prayed to God to do his will in my mother's life at this very moment where she has had an accident but..but before we rushed into the room the doctor told us that she wouldn't make it because she lost too much blood I cried in my brother's arms before we entered the room she promised us with her precious last words to never be separated from each other and that I should be the mother for the family and that we should never forget our creator and maker the amazing God afterwards it was a week later we were still in grief and disbelief that our care bear, our lover,our role model,our only hope as died my only hope.How could God let this happen I thought in my room drowning in deppression and denial about how my life has become a mess in two weeks.The school had knwoledge on what had took place so we stayed home for the two weeks now my mind has developed differently since that heart take I now think this religion is foolishness and a waste of time I ignore my brother's comments about Jesus in breakfast and dinner times as for my dad he doesn't talk to me or my brother,he mostly ignores us all the time.
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Today I'm going back to school,'no more nice little christian girl' my mind says I laugh I didn't really have any clothes since all of them were mostly long and now ugly to me I disgusted them so I went out and bought some reasonable clothes yesterday to wear for school today I now wore makeup at school I got some stares at school mostly from my brother he says he doesn't know who I am anymore.The next day at lunch time  the popular girls in the school now knew my name for the angriest,feared by all, uptight Halley Mase throught Scotbourg Hill high school.By now I started hanging out with the coolest kids in school caring about no one.My brother started worrying about me going out to parties with my school mates and now my bestfriend's at school I was now in a group there were Katie Willow,John Peach, Talitha May and me Halley Mase we went to the most biggest parties mostly dancing and drinking.I started skipping classes and going out with them at night caring less about anything else the truth is I mostly wanted to clear my head from all my misery I never knew I had.My father hasn't talked to me still so I just did what I wanted I now had a boyfriend set up by my besties his name was Jay Woods he went to parties with our group also getting any chance he can to be with me still there was something deep down in me that felt disrupted when he layed with me the first time but I shook it off he still was cute and known to my new besties as the handsome hottie.We started carelessly hanging out meaning sneaking out from my group when we all go out and drinking together and laying together more often than usual. I came home one night from partying and saw my brother reading his bible I laughed at him and mocked him for being nerdy but all he said was I am drunk and he will always be praying for me, w..what does he know about such silly things is he dumb about praying I nearly vommitted.After days of that predicament I had with my brother I started vomiting and got picky with my food my back hurt I didn't know why I felt like this I later told my socall bestfriend's Katie and Talitha they said I might be pregnant I was in shock how could I deal with a baby now I was in disbelief and cursed them out saying it was all there fault afterwards they didn't dare to call.Later I went and got pregnancy tests, infront of me were all the proof I needed six confirmations of positive test sticks layed out on the bathroom floor. I sunk my head in my hands w..what am I going to do I don't want to lose it though, I was now in my my own pool of sorrow I cried the whole night and slept on my bathroom mat.