Tell Me Everything (BJYX)

Chapter 4: Open Secrets

Ever since their first night together, XiaoZhan and Yibo had made it a regular occurrence for them to share chaste kisses and secret nights.

The two of them can pass by each other in the halls, then, after making sure that there was no one else around, give each other a peck on the lips. Other times it would escalate to a passionate make out session hidden in one of the rooms. When night came, XiaoZhan would drop the shooting ground, their favorite place, to see if Yibo would bring him to the general's room.

Sometimes, Yibo would be gone for a while. It could be a day, and it could even be more than a week. Those were the times when he was doing his duties as a general. He would often come back unscathed, but it wasn't always. XiaoZhan hated the nights when he stumbled upon the general trying to fix up his own wounds by himself.

"What got you so beat up like this?" XiaoZhan asked in a whisper as he patched up the general.

The two of them were once again in the infirmary. A room that became one of "their spots", second to the shooting ground. It was dark, the night already took over the sky, and the only thing that lit up the room were a couple of candles giving a soft, orange glow.

"ChongQing forces are clever," Yibo said passively, un-moving so that XiaoZhan can properly dress his wounds. "It was as if they knew that they were heading deeper into the mountains through the riverside." the general clicked his tongue and glared into the flicker of a candle's small flame. "There's a spy... I'm sure of it."

XiaoZhan shook his head and tied up the bandage tightly. "Be careful, Yibo. I don't want you to get hurt any more than this." he stood up from his kneeling position to sit beside the general on the bed.

Yibo's eyes softened and he wrapped his arms around XiaoZhan's waist, head coming to lean on the other man's shoulder. "I know, but I have to do this. It's what I need to do for my country." he leaned back and looked into XiaoZhan's eyes. "A few days from now I'm heading back with a new set of men to attack a weapons base in ChongQing. A scout just discovered it. If we get to destroy it then we'll get the upper hand the next time we fight."

That was a load of information. XiaoZhan smiled, pleased that Yibo had come to trust him so much to give him this amount.

The general noticed the smile. It was a soft one, a genuine one. XiaoZhan always smiled whenever Yibo talked about things like this, and seeing it on the training soldier's face, knowing that he was the cause of it, made him feel so happy. Yibo couldn't stop himself from pecking the very lips that formed said smile.

XiaoZhan chuckled, and asked, "What was that for?"

"You were just..." Yibo started, not sure how to put his feelings into words, "So beautiful."

XiaoZhan brought a hand to caress Yibo's cheek and gave his forehead a soft kiss, lips touching skin a moment longer. "You're too much."

"It's true though." insisted Yibo, hands coming to clasp XiaoZhan's own. "You're always so happy when I'm talking about things like this and when I see you smile... it makes me feel warm."

At those words, XiaoZhan felt a stab in his heart.

The spy forced a laugh to come out. "I-I just love listening to you talk about yourself, Yibo." he said shakily, heart beating in his chest.

This wasn't like him.

XiaoZhan was supposed to be calm. Even during times like this, even as he laid in bed with his source, XiaoZhan never felt anything more. This... was this guilt? The spy found himself swallowing, eyes darting away from Yibo's. No. No, it couldn't be.