Friends to Lovers

The Missing Puzzle

June 25, 2011

"Sammy? Hey Sam!" Alex shouted. "Yes? what is it again?" "You're out of this world Sam, where does your mind take you? Look if anything or anyone is bothering you, you got me always. Remember?" A nod from me makes her stop. I sip a little coffee and bite an inch at my toast, then I head to the bathroom to prepare for work. And still my flash back takes me away from reality, it takes me to everything i never thought it was. On our way to work I'm still lost and I know Alex keeps on checking me every now and then while she's driving.

At work I manage to loosen up a bit but every time I pass at Alex's table the shift of my brain happens in a snap. Time passes by so fast it's lunch time, and Alex and I always eat at the restaurant a few blocks from the office. "Sam, let's go" I can't ignore her and tell her to eat alone, she'll probably won't stop asking if i will do that. We walked as always with her arms twisted in mine, she kept on talking until we reached the res-to. I order the same salad I have every day and Alex's favorite lasagna. Food was served and she's still talking to me but all i could hear is her sweet laugh. I didn't notice that I've been staring at her all meal long that makes Alex pinch me. "Stop staring like you're going to eat me bitch! Are you even listening to me?" "Ouch! It hurts moron, sorry did i miss something?". Alex reached my hand and held it so tight "Sam, you are really not in yourself today. Would you like to talk about it over dinner tonight?". Is Alex sending me the same thing that I've been thinking since I woke up? Or it's just in my head? "I'm so sorry Alex, i really wanted to tell you but i can't find the right words to say" "It's okay Sam i understand, i hope you'll be okay tonight. Let's pay and head back to work".

After lunch I couldn't take the pressure any more, I asked for an early out because I don't feel okay. My boss allowed me to do so and I stop by Alex 's table but she's in the meeting so I decided to leave a post on her table. "Alex, I don't feel okay, I'll be going home early. See you at dinner, i can still cook so don't bother to buy. Kisses Sam" And then I left. On my way home the flash back never stops.

AFTER THE STORM

November 2007
4 months after Alex and Joshua's break up, Alex is on track again. The fear and anxiety of the storm was gone, it's the best gift for her on her birthday. I was more happy to see her back on her feet again, she's been to a crucial state last few months. "Sam! come here and have coffee with us" "Coming dear" I've used to calling her that way because she made me to. "You know what, you two really good together. You support each other and protecting each other, you make a perfect couple" one of our office mates stated. And we look at each other and laugh, "I'll be the luckiest girl in the world if Sam is my girlfriend" Alex said "but we are like sisters" i answered.

June 20, 2011

Reality bites a thousand times at the least you expect it. It was my 33th birthday and I don't have plans on celebrating it. Alex on the other hand made plans already, plans i didn't know. She surprised me with balloons and a party at the apartment. I don't have a choice anymore, our friends are already there so let's just party. Clock strikes 2 am and the guest must go, it was a really a long night thanks God it's Sunday. Alex and I do the cleaning, "I hoped you had fun on your day, it's the least that i can do for you" "Oh Alex your the best ever. It's really a party night and thank you for the surprise, I didn't expect that".

The apartment was a disaster and we are both drunk. "Happy Birhtday Sam'' extending her arm with a mint green box. "Hey, the party is enough, you don't need to give me a gift" "I know just open it, It's really for you". And as I opened the tiny box, it was a necklace. The same necklace she used to have since we met, she told me that it's her mother's gift to her. Mine was exactly the replica with an engraved name at the back, "Alex" it's her name. "Why did i have your name on my necklace?" "I got your name engraved on mine"and I know it's like committing to each other.