Teruteru x reader

Alone (chapter 9)

(Teruteru POV) (TRIGGER WARNING c*ts)
I sat on my bed staring at my arms.
I need to breathe... i felt the tears form in my eyes and i just shoved my face back into a pillow.
"I-I'm weak..."
I mumbled into my pillow
"I-I'm useless and w-weak" "dumb T-Teruteru"
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath I sat there and twitched in pain.
"Teru.."
I looked over to my door and saw y/n
"Hey teru are you feeling better..?"
I shook my head no. My body was burning I felt sick from all this crying.
Y/n walked over to me and she placed a cold wet rag on my head.
It felt nice until it lost its cold feeling. Y/n took it back.
"Can I check your arms?"
I reached my arm out to her and she smiled a little.
"Hey.. good job buddy you were clean for a few hours"
I smiled a little but I still had no strength. Im weak weak weak weak WEAK!
"Teruteru! Are you okay?"
I realized I had started to cry again.
"Sorry y-y/n"
She hugged me and then went to get bandages and ointment. She came back and put some ointment on my arms then wrapped them up.
"Teruteru... I have something to ask of you"
I looked at her
"I know it will be hard but you can't hurt yourself anymore.. you could lose to much blood"
I nodded my head.
"I-I pr-promise"
She hugged me then kissed me.. that was nice I missed that..
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I gasped a little and y/n wasn't in my room anymore. I looked at my arms some more.
I can't stop.. even if I promised y/n I can't stop it..
Just a little wont hurt... just a little.. little.
I stopped myself and took a deep breath. I'll take a bath, sure, yeah, that always makes me happy.
I turned on the water and put in bubbles because those always make me calm and they smell good.
I got undressed and turned off the water. I slowly went into the bath. The bubbles made it so you could only see my head. I added to many bubbles. I sat in the bath and accidentally fell asleep,sadly I didn't drown.. wait is that a good thing or a bad thing?
(Y/n POV)
I went back to teruterus room.
"I'm coming in"
I walked into his room and he wasn't there. I saw the bathroom light on. Maybe he's just washing his arms more.
Wait
Is he asleep.
I heard him softly snoring. I know he was asleep because whenever he's super comfortable when he's asleep he makes a soft snoring sound.
I should probably wake him up. I walked in slowly and saw him in the bath. God that's a lot of bubbles. I walked over to him and booped his nose so he would wake up.
"H-huh y/n... AHH IMNOTWEARINGANYTHING"
"Teruteru I can't see anything don't worry."
I laughed a little. He yawned and then said
"L-let me get dressed"
I giggled more
"Okay handsome"
His cheeks turned more red then usual.
I'm glad I made him happy.
After a few minutes Teruteru came out in his regular clothes. His cheeks were more red.
Teruteru sat next to me. I held his hand and slowly kissed his cheek.
He smiled.. I looked into his eyes they looked happier and alive which made me happy. I think he's getting better I believe in him.
(Teruteru POV)
I want to kiss her.. but then I'll feel like a pervert. I feel somewhat better but somethings still off. I put my arm around y/n then got face to face with her (which is weird because I'm very short) I kissed her. Man I needed that.
I missed the feeling of her warm lips against mine. I missed the look in her eyes. I missed feeling happy.. after what felt like forever we stopped our kiss.
"I-I'm sorry.. I s-should have asked your p-permission"
I stuttered.
"It's okay teru! I'd only be mad if it was someone other then you"
She smiled at me.
"Teru I have to get ready for bed now.. see you later"
She blew me a kiss then left the room.
I love her.. so so so so so so much.
What if she leaves me.. what if I'm so clingy I get annoying and she leaves me forever.. I wouldn't be surprised if she got sick of me too.
I need to think happy.. happy happy happy happy.
I rubbed my eyes. Then I closed my eyes. My thoughts came in like a raging river, a river that I'm drowning in, the river I am going to die in. Die did I say die? I'm tired I'll go to bed now.