I HAVE NONE

I kept beating and pleading round the bush,

Kept saying things I didn't wanna say,

Cause can you tell me who I am,

 What I really wanna say,

Words flow through my mind in a rush ,

 I keep beating round the bush,

what is the price I should pay?

Rooms full of mirrors,

shadows in my terrors,

Darkness has been my darling, whose there now to fear.

Loneliness breaks the silence

As i kill myself with violence,

caused by none,

have loved by none,

The time has become tired,

As I kept myself strangling to a wire,

The little window of the world in my arm,

struck with the beats in ear,

Tryn to beat up my conscience, 

nothing but more to fear.

Seeing nonsense, listening bullshit,

why do I care about lilac nail polish. 

High cheeks filled with botox,

Lives fill with webs of wax,

 Tryn to show what we are tryn to feel,

Wake up dear it's nothing real.

High laughter in the background, 

funky music put in front ground, 

take it all out what would you hear,

racist woes and self induce fear.

The every fricking beat,

made through million times,

called off by million lives.

Why the hell you should care,

when my words are screaming at your dare,

I'm just another buffoon,

filled in void and thoughts so bare,

why should you hear to the man in a closet, 

as cheeks got red and tears in flare'

What had he achieved, what did he flex,

what ideal family, he's  gonna bewitch,

for all the questions you ask, 

wearing a real mask,

Saying out in the flow, as truth gives you blow, 

what am I? just ordinary!

with motivation........I HAVE NONE