unrealistic thoughts

So basically... Chapter One of whatever this is.

      Okay okay here me out. I can never really think on what to actually write. So why not write about me. Now doesn't that sound narcissistic, yes, well my life is a bit... It's something. That's all I got to say. So here's the thing like I was trying to say, if you so just what to know, then please stay tuned.
Yes you.
The person who is reading this. By the way I hope your having a wonderful day and if you just said 'nope' then please let me make it a wonderful day. Ur Beautiful! So shush and let me think about what I'm about to say next cause at this point I have no fucking clue what the fuck is going on. But who really ever does. Ur a beautiful loser and yes I can say that since I am too. So welcome the club of beautiful losers if you don't consider yourself one well start. I mean like really. It has like a "I'm not trying to be negative about myself so positive afrimation in the front then BAM! "loser!" there that's much better.

     Like I was saying thoo you ever just like want to be a YouTuber but you're so socially awkward about things that you wouldn't know what to fucking do in the whole video so your basically just saying "so yea" the whole time.

     Yes I have recorded myself as if I was an actual youtuber. Do. Not. Tell. Me. You. Haven't. Cause you probably have. Or not and I'm just weird like that but like I was saying I feel like I'm better at expressing what I want to say by writing it. So cheers to that.
   
      But anyway I've always kinda wanted to have like an audience that enjoys my stuff ya know. I mean I can be a pretty funny person. ( not that I'm like bragging or anything~ I'm funny to myself at least that's gonna count) So I want to share that because I can be happy and hyper and have crack head energy. But I also am fucking sad inside and noooo don't be sad by what I just said because hey it whatever. I've dealt with it and a lot of others do to and that's life.

   But I'm pretty sure that a lot of people don't know that I'm probably the happiest sad person they'll ever meet and yeah I don't take about my feeling seriously especially since I find it kinda uncomfortable but that doesn't mean I don't want to but I usually like to deal with things on my own since I just find it easier. I know that's such a great thing to do. Ha also joking. I'm just that person I guess. Relatable I think not. Ha

    But yea I guess making these will be fun like I have something to do. Maybe I could be like a blogger ha funny I know. I'm to irrelevant for that, but yea maybe even comment if I should do this or something?? I don't know? Maybe ever give me suggestions on what to talk about that would be cool since I don't really know what to talk about. Buuuuut yea see ya for now ya beautiful loser~~