unrealistic thoughts

chapter two of thisss

Alriiight hi ya beautiful loser! miss me? Yea I thought so. Joking you probably didn't buut thanks alright. I'll let it slide for now. Anyway how have you guys been? I hope you've been good and if not I hope that it gets better. Anyway the past two day I've been up all night and sleeping during the day. It's great...

      I guess but while I don't sleep I have actually been excersicing by myself. I know, wow you're Excersicing. Yea, yea I am and I feel like I'm doing something. I mean I've been in a funk lately like really. School has been stressing me out and I've never been more disappointed in myself than this year since I was the kid that got decent grades never F's and now there's nothing but F's and at this point I just stopped caring. I mean I failed. I know that's like a really negative mindset but it's kept me from stressing out to much. This year has been pretty rough if you ask me. I just can't wait for it to be over.

      But back to what I was saying excersicing. I just randomly had a thought since I felt energetic and let me remind you this was in the middles of the night at like 4 and I got up and just did some excersises and right now my legs hurt and my sides but it's a good kinda pain am I weird for that? I mean to me pain kinda feels nice and I know how that sounds you little sickos XD that's pretty kinky of you to say but nahhhh don't do me like that.

      It's like having a bruise and just pointing at it because why not? Is that weird? I feel like that's weird? Anyway enough of this talk. Before I embarrass myself more. That's what I've been doing before I sleep. I'm probably gonna do it again later since I know I'm not gonna sleep since I just woke up like 3 hours ago and it's 11:23pm soooo yea. I don't really know what to talk about now since I'm not that interesting and I feel lazy right now soooo to that I say till then ya beautiful losers🖤