The Facade

The Beginning of Everything

Shina Zenshi, 18 years old and everybody says that I'm a modest person, has a quiet demeanor but uplifting, descent, refined girl, optimistic, intelligent and a good person. But all of that was just a facade. Well, we all put a facade appearance merely so people will like us. And that's what makes us happy right? It's also hilarious when people doesn't know your true self and keep deceiving them. That's why I can't stop being a hypocrite person. *Smirk

In a manga books we can never overlook a proverb that says 'everybody has a reason why they became the person they are recently'. Well, I believe that one. Genuinely, something happened to me when I was a very young girl and that's the reasons why I became like this.

It all happened when I was still in Elementary.

* Recollection of the past *

Friends: Hi Shina! ^ _^
Me: Hello!
Friend 1: Let's go play at the park when the class ends. ^_^
Me: um, I'm sorry but there's something I need to do later.
Friend 1: come on Shina! *pout* It's not like we always do this. Please? *puppy eyes*
Me: Okay. Okay. Just stop that puppy eyes of yours.
Friend 1: Yey! ^_^ Guys, who's gonna come with us at the park later?
Friend 2: Count me in!^_^
Friend 3: me too! ^_^
Friend 4: me!^_^
Friend 5: me too! ^_^
Friend 1: I can't wait later hihihi

Yup. Everybody likes me included the teachers. They like me because I was a very good child, obedient, knows how to behave myself and a intelligent one. But there's a one girl who really disliked me and the worst of the worst is she's my cousin. Her name is Aiko. Initially, I really didn't mind her. And because I always ignored her, she glares at me all the time. Maybe she hated the fact that a lot of people likes me than people who likes her? I know I'm being conceited but I'm just telling the truth though . Hehehe

*Tommorow*

Me: Good morning! ^_^
Friends: Good morning! ^_^

Actually, I sit beside my cousin. And as usual she's bringing her mother's make up. She even put some make up on her face.

*Stares at her face*

Cousin: What are you looking for? *She raise one of her eyebrows*

*In my mind*

Yabai! What should I do? I should say something nice to her. Otherwise she'll hate me more than before. Ahh. What should I say? Ah!

Me: Um. It's because you're so pretty specifically when you put some make up. And that! Yeah your clothes, it suits you and it's the perfect complement to your make up.
Cousin: I know that already. So stop looking at me! It's so infuriating! *She rolled her eyes*
Me: I'm sorry.
Friend 1: Shina!! Teacher is calling for you.
Me: okay!
Teacher: Shina, would you mind checking the exam you guys took yesterday? *Smile*
Me: Of course ma'am. That doesn't hard at all. You can rely on me more. ^_^
Teacher: What a good child. ^_^ Your parents must be happy having you as their daughter. You're even a intelligent girl. Keep that up! ^_^
Me: Yes! Thank you ^//^

*A few minutes later*

Classmate: crying... *crying... *crying * sob
Teacher: Why are you crying?
Classmate: Aiko *sob she *sob won't give me my pen *sob back.
Teacher: It's okay now. I'll get it back. So stop crying now, okay? ^_^
Classmate: yes..*sob
Teacher: Aiko, can I have that pen back?
Aiko: Why? *Raise one of her eyebrows* I borrowed it to her. She earnestly let me have it though. Duh!
Teacher: Aiko, you shouldn't do that thing. She can't write because you have her pen. Please give it back to your classmate.
Aiko: Look Ms. Teacher! I'm using it too! I can't write if I give it back to her! You're supposed to be a teacher, so you should know what I'm doing! Tsk!

*Me approaches my classmate who was crying*

Me: You can have one of my pen since I have 2 of them.
Classmate: Thank you Shina! ^_^
Me: No worries. You should start writing now because it's almost time for our class to end otherwise teacher won't let you go home.
Classmate: Yes ^_^
Teacher: Aiko, you should be like Shina. You should learn how to be a nice girl like her. You'll regret it someday otherwise.
Aiko: ....*she looks at me* I don't really care if no one will like me! * glare and rolled her eyes at me*
Me: ....

Woah.. she's glaring at me. She must be really mad at me. Well, teacher is right though. She must learn how to become a nice girl otherwise she'll regret it someday and no one will like her.

*Tomorrow*

When I arrive at school, my chair was gone and my desk is dirty. I know it's her doing. Well I'll just ignore it. It's too immature. I'm not an immature one so I won't react to this kind of situation and cry. I'll just ask the teacher.

*Tommorow*

I hope my chair ain't gone today and I also hope that my desk is clean.

*Open door* Ohh. It's there and my desk is clean. That's a relief ^_^.

Me: Good morning! ^_^
Friends: ....
Me: Is something wrong?
Friend 1: let's go guys

*Friends walks away from me*

Me:...

It must be her again. It wasn't my chair and my desk but my friends? *Sigh* She's taking my friends away from me huh? Like I'd let her.

*Lunch*

Me: Guys, let's go eat together. ^_^
Friends: *ignore me and they approaches my cousin* Aiko, let's eat lunch together. ^_^
Aiko: Sure * looks at me with a smirk face*
Me: .... Guys, let me join too. ^_^
Friends: .... *eating*
Friend 1: Guys, let's play later at the park.
Friends: sure ^_^
Aiko: Okay! *High pitched voice*
Me: count me in too ^_^
Friends: *stares at Aiko*
Aiko: Ah! Sorry but you're not invited. Right girls?
Friends: .. yeah *averted eyes*
Me: ohh. Okay. Then, next time. Let's play next time. ^_^
Friends: Sorry but there will be no next time.
Me: huh? Why?
Friend 1: it's because you're not our friend anymore.
Me: huh? What are you talking about?
Friend 2: you heard her right?
Me: But you said the other day that we're friends.. were you guys just pretending?
Friend 3: oh come on Shina! Should we be specific to you? You're intelligent so you should understand right? *Rolled eyes*
Friend 2: Wanna know why we pretended to be your friend? It's because we thought that if we do that we'll get the same treatment from the teachers if we make you our friend but our strategy didn't work.
Friend 5: it's as if you're the only student here. It really exasperated us.
Friend 4: maybe she's just pretending to be intelligent so that our teachers will like her. Eww! What a hideous attitude you have Shina* rolled eyes*
Friend 5: Maybe she's also pretending to be a good girl so that our treachers will love her. Duhh.. What a fraud. Stupid. Oh! I heard that her mom got remarried.
Friend 3: Maybe his dad found out that her mom get laid with someone else and left them? Haha
Friend 1: Eww! Disgusting! Maybe you'll become a slut like your mom someday. Or maybe you're already. Yuck!  Hahahaha
Friend 2: We shouldn't involve ourselves with the likes of her. What a hypocrite! Yuck!! Let's go guys.
Aiko: Serves you right! *Smirk
Me: *teary eyes*

It's okay. It's okay. Don't cry Shina. It's okay. *Sigh* I was able to hold it in because I was in the classroom and I don't want them to see the pathetic me. But when I get home, my tears fall down into my cheeks endlessly until I fall asleep.

*Tommorow*

They started to bad-mouthing me but I just ignored them all. And then I thought something that 'I shouldn't trust people easily anymore'.

When I got home, I started thinking 'what did I do to them?' Why did it end up like this? ' I tried so hard so that they will like me but.. why. Why did they cast me aside? Did I make a folly blunder? I should make up with my mistakes and never make a stupid mistakes anymore. I should change myself.

Everyday, they bad-mouthed me and I always find my chair outside of the classroom and my desk is becoming more dirtier than before. But I just ignored them all. They did that to me constantly until we graduated in Elementary School.

To be continued~