SHE IS MINE (JUNGKOOK FF) ✔️

CHAPTER 30 ( THE LAST CHAPTER )

The Last Chapter.

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Y/n's Pov

Pain is an unpleasant sensation and emotional experience that links to tissue damage. It allows the body to react and prevent further tissue damage. People feel pain when a signal travels through nerve fibers to the brain for interpretation.

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"It's painful to say goodbye to someone you don't want to let go. I think grieving is the same for everybody that lost someone you love deeply. It's the same. You know, you're really no different than anybody else who's lost somebody they adored. This is the saddest part when you lost someone you love - that person keeps changing. And later you wonder, is this the same person I lost? Maybe you lost more maybe less, then thousand different things that come from your memory or imagination - and you do not know which is which, which was true, which was false. They say there is a reason. They say that time will heal. But neither time nor reason, will change the way I feel. I wasn't prepared for death. Nobody is. There are moments in life when you wish you could bring someone down from heaven. Spend the day with them just one more time, give them one more hug, kiss them goodbye or hear their voice again. One more chance to say "I love you". There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real."

Pain.

This is the worst kind of pain. Losing someone you love that you're not even prepared. You are not aware.

Tears and cries can be heard all over the room after I said that bunch of deep and meaningful words. But what can I do? This is what I feel right now. And the way I feel the pain inside is killing me. Every part and inch of me is hurting. It's like I can almost feel it physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

'So, this is how it feels? It's like your being hit by a goddamn huge truck that you can almost feel your heart shattering into a million pieces.'

I looked up at all the people who is sadly looking at me with their swollen and red eyes and loads of tears flowing down their cheeks. I was standing infront of a black mic stand, to where you speak and say anything that you want to share with them. The moments, the laughter, the cries. With my Mother.

My tears just kept flowing until they stopped. I looked at my boyfriend as well as my family, friends, collegues, and relatives. They just lift their eyes at me while they listen and say nothing. I faked a smile at them as I wiped away my tears and turned to look behind me, only to see my mother's beautiful picture beside her coffin. And inside, is my mother's pale and cold body. No life and not breathing.

I can't explain the pain I'm feeling right now. All I know is that it hurts so much that I find myself breathing heavily. My chest hurts and every part inside of my body felt numb. My mind is blank but I kept on crying for an unknown reason. I'm trying hard to make it stop. Even my brain can't make the pain stop. You will never understand it until it happens to you.

"Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back."