+ a thank you gift
+ FIVE
the silence is too eerie. the suspense is killing him, they are about to announce the trainee who placed fifth. and four trainees are fighting for that position. four friends, four family.
ham wonjin, kang minhee, koo jungmo and song hyeongjun.
but when minhee's name was finally called, jungmo tired his best not to cry. he watches wonjin who immediately ran towards minhee, hugging the sobbing younger.
jungmo forced himself to smile wide, but it's hard. he feels happy that minhee made it to the line up, but he he feels devastated that he couldn't (or maybe he feels sad realizing thr fact that minhee will be away for how many years). he tried to reach for the younger, but the amounf of trainees surrounding the new 10th place makes it too hard. and so he just smiles from a far.
he watches how minhee walked towards the pyramid. he watched how minhee walked towards his dream.
he watched how minhee walked away from him.
he only watches.
as soon as minhee sat on the 10th chair, his eyes immediately darted back to his friends. wonjin is smiling widely, but the hint of nervousness is evident in his face. he keeps on looking at hyeongjun, and minhee exactly knows what he feels. the said poodle is looking as hopeful as ever, praying and wanting his name to be called so he can be with his minhee hyung.
and jungmo, when minhee's eyes landed on the elder, he suddenly feels himself crying again. jungmo is just staring straight, trying to smile as best as he can, but minhee knows how much the elder wants to cry. the happiness that minhee felt was suddenly gone.
realization hit him, he's going to be away. he's going to be away from his friends. he's going to be away from jungmo. he started to feel weak, thankfully he finally sat down on the hard chair..
jungmo, who has always been his pillar. his support, his everything. jungmo who has always been by his side. jungmo who has always been the person that he loves the most. he's leaving him, and minhee finally couldn't stop himself from crying.
jungmo is just there, waiting for his moment to join minhee in the pyramid. he is just there, but minhee feels like he's so far away.
he wants to touch the elder's hands and feels his warmth, but minhee could only stare from a far.
when hyeongjun's name was called, it was the moment that minhee knew it's finally over. mnet wouldn't allow more than 3 trainees from the same company to debut. he lost his hope. it's already over.
the information was too hard to process, he's feeling a lot of mixed emotions. he's having a hard time to breath.
he immediately looks back at jungmo who is crying on wonjin's shoulder, but even though there are tears on the elder's eyes, he still looks ethereal.
minhee bits his bottom lip, he doesn't leave his gaze away from jungmo.
but it was the last time that he got to stare at his star.
+ FOUR
minhee feels like laughing. for pete's sake he should be the one who is sad and angry right now! he just lost his family that they only started to build, he parted with his friends so soon. he should be the one crying his heart out, but why is jungmo the one so affected?
