broken rays of light

Lydia Martin

Dear Lydia,

We haven't always been that close but lately I feel like we were each others anchor. I know that you will know that I am gone way before you get this letter but I just wanted to explain slightly on why I did it.

Before I do, I just wanted to say that I have always loved you. You have always been the one and only for me. I wish we had more time together but what we had was amazing. That kiss what one of the highlights of my life and always will be. You don't know how much I appreciated what you did that day. You made me feel grounded and needed when I felt alone and useless. I know that you will find someone else you have the rest of your life still.

Now to the bit that may make you sad. Scrap that it will make you sad but that is because you are a kind and compassionate person that I had grown to love. The guilt of everyone I had killed was just to much for me. I didn't want to be selfish. I deserved the sleepless nights, nightmares and constant paranoia. That was my punishment for killing them, him. I know how much you cared for Aiden. Yeah he was a bad guy at the start but even I could see that he had changed and was trying to be better. Then I had to go and ruin that by getting possessed. I couldn't risk becoming it again. I still felt some darkness and that was the final push over the edge. You just have to believe me that I did this to protect everyone but especially you.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS, STILES 

xxxx

P.s You remember that red checked shirt you love so much, you can keep it.