"Ms. Choi, can you pleaassseee let Taehyungie out for recess just this once," I pleaded to my kinder garden teacher.
"Sujin, It wouldn't be fair to the other kids," She quickly responded.I quickly popped my head to see the miserable five year old alone inside the classroom.
"But he's the only one inside!!" I exclaimed.I really wanted to play with Tae, the only time I see him is when I pass him going to the bathroom as he is outside the classroom holding his arms up as a punishment. What a trouble maker.
"Please Ms.Choi, I just want to play with my bestfriend, he's always stuck in here" I said while pouting.
Ms.Choi looked back at Tae in the classroom and sighed.
"Just this once only because he finished his work, Taehyung will be out shortly," she finally gave in. My eyes twinkled at her response as I sat down patiently waiting for my trouble making bestie outside the classroom door.
*****
"Sujin!!!!" Taehyung said happily.
I quickly turned my head and stood up to face him, smiling from ear to ear.
"Taehyungiee!! I never get to see you anymore because you're always in trouble, I missed you" I said with my arms crossed.
"I missed you too, but you know what else I missed?" He looked at me with his cute rectangular smile.
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion, and just stared at Taehyung.
"Sujin, I missed playing with you!! lets go outside" he said jumping around.
"I missed that too!!" I said happily. That was of course until he smacked one of the two buns in my hair so hard not only did it hurt, but it fell out. I watched my hair slowly sink down the side of my head, and turned my gaze back to the running Taehyung.
"KIM TAEHYUUNGGG!!" I shouted, as I dashed towards him. I heard him giggle. Not to long after chasing the little rascal I managed to catch up to him and jumped on his back knocking him to the floor, I quickly ran away sneaking glances and laughing at the dirt covered Taehyung.
"Lee Sujin your father is here to see you," said Ms.choi.
"Dad!" I said smiling while running towards him. He wasn't smiling, Taehyung ran up next to me smiling at my father.
"Hello Mr.Lee," Tae said while bowing slightly.
"Taehyung, Sujin" he said slowly. he looks a mess, he's always filled with energy. Whats wrong? I could see the sadness in his face as tears started to form in his eyes, I didn't speak. I was afraid of what was going to happen next.
"Your mother," He said with a lump in his throat.
"mom?," I said in confusion. My father took Tae's hand along with mine with tears streaming down his face. I was confused but more so scared what happened to my mom? My stomach was knotted. I felt Tae grab my other hand, his palm was clammy. He was nervous too.
"She was in an accident, and she didn't make it....She had 2 surgeries right after she dropped you off here at school. Sujin I am so sorry" He said trying to hold back more tears. I dropped onto my knees as Taehyung hugged me I felt the tears falling from his eyes to my shoulders, he let me go so my father could give me a tight squeeze. Its my fault she's dead. I couldn't stop those thoughts.
"BEEP BEEP BEEP"
I gasped with tears in my eyes, not this again. I've has this dream everyday for the past week leading up to the first day of school. I wiped away the tears slowly dripping down my face. I turned to my alarm to stop it, and groaned rolling out of bed and into the shower.
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I headed downstairs after I changed into my school uniform:
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to find a fresh bowl of fruit and yogurt with a sticky note reading; I can't cook the delicious breakfasts your mom used to make, but I tried. Have a good first day, chore list is on the fridge. I smiled at the bowl of fruit and yogurt because my dad still can't cook, but at least he tries. I stared at my phone looking at the time 6:37am. I quickly finished my food, slipped on my shoes and walked to school.
