Seven Days

Chapter Ocho.

Sooooo.. I'm so busy with homework and chores and I do little things to earn money and all that stuff that I never, ever have any time to write my stories and when I do it's always super short and for that I am sowwie. .( and so is Bobo. Well, Happy Day After Veterans Day Although Lots Of People Celebrate It Today Day!!! Thank you everyone who fought for us. .)

Soo. I'll quit talking, or I guess typing, well, I'll keep typing but yeah...

Averie: ABBY! SHUT UP AND WRITE ABOUT ME FANG IT!

Conceited much..? .P

Anywho.

I walked to Ben and Carter's house and Carter was lying on the couch drinking Yoohoo, the best chocolate milk drink and mine and Carter's all time favorite drink, and watching Lost. Mine and his obsession.

I watched the last season on TV when it was on but never saw the others so I came over to Ben's and started watching it on their Netflix and kind of got Carter addicted too, no one else would watch it with me and I felt rude coming over and hogging their TV when no one else even wanted to see the show although they assured me that it was perfectly fine. I'm only on the second season though because there's only a limited amount of season's and I don't want to just speed through them.

Carter's further along in the series though and, being the sweetheart that he is, turned it off when he saw me come in saying that he didn't want to spoil it for me.

He asked me how school was and I told him that everyone asked if he was okay and he seemed pleased with the positive attention.

"Where's Ben?" Carter asked.

"Last time I saw him he was in the car with Jayley, probably giving her a ride home but he should be back by now so I guess he just stayed over at her house for a while."

Carter giving a dirty look to nothing in particular, not a big fan of Jayley either.

"Not to be rude Averie, I mean, you know I love you, but why are you here?"

I gave him a confused look because I had no idea what he was talking about so he continued saying, "everyone and there mother knows you're head over heels for my brother, like, completely in love. Why aren't you out staking your claim? Unhook Jayley's nasty claws from him before it's too late! You can hang out with me anytime and you only have a limited amount if time before you can't have him anymore."

What he was saying made since but I'd already given up. Something I couldn't admit to Carter.

Ben was one of the only things that actually kept me alive. I would have probably killed myself after my mom died if Ben hadn't been there for me. I completely shut down for a while, letting my dad beat me and not even worrying about it because I was able to feel something, this is going to sound sick, but for a while I liked it. I liked it when my dad got angry and I would provoke him just so he'd throw me into a wall, so he'd slam to the ground and kick me until I couldn't do anything but stay there all night, so he'd corner me and punch me. I liked it so I could feel, so I'd actually have something that was a constant, so that I could have that hope that maybe I wouldn't live through it, because I felt like I deserved it. I didn't smile, I didn't laugh, I didn't feel joy.

But Ben saved me. One day, about a month and a half after everything started, he got angry. The whole time, while my mom was sick, when she died and after, he was there, he was helping me through it and he always took my crap. But when he got angry, I finally knew that I was hurting him right along with me.

Jayley had missed school that day so I agreed ti let him take me home after school but instead of taking me home, he drove to the park my mom took me to when I was little, no one really went there anymore so he didn't have to worry about anyone bothering us. He stopped the car and looked at me. I watched the clock and he stared at me for seven minutes and I just stared ahead, not moving, not looking at him, not talking until he started talking. And even then I still looked forward.

"Why?" He asked.

Still I didn't answer and so he continued, yelling it this time saying, "WHY AVERIE? YOU CAN'T JUST GIVE UP! You've never been that girl the one that JUST STOPS LIVING BECAUSE SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS TO THEM! You know you're mom didn't want you to be like this. Depressed, unhappy, someone who is hard to be around because she makes everyone tense. I'm sorry to tell you this but you know it's true just as much as I do and everyone else right along with me. You can give up if you want, heck, i'm pretty sure you already have and I don't want to do this but I'm not going to hang around and watch you quit life." With that he turned the car on and drove me home.

I finally looked at him and he was staring straight ahead, jaw clenched and right then, he turned and looked me straight in the eyes. That knocked me into reality. I finally realized that someone cares about me. Someone that I care about, and it would hurt him if I gave up. Right then I broke. The shell I made for myself, that hardened me and protected me cracked and for the first time since my mom had died, I cried, just three tears fell, but it was enough.

After that day I was my old self, or as much of my old self as I could be after losing someone so important to me.

Ben had almost given up on me. And now I've given up on him.

I don't see that care I saw that day he finally got angry at me, when I finally looked into his eyes. And I don't want to stick around to see what he once had and now lacks because it hurts.

But I couldn't tell Carter this.

"I'm here because you just came out of surgery and you're home alone and I'm your friend. I'm here because I'm not in love with Ben and even if I did, he's not mine to love. He's someone else's. And even if I did love him, it would hurt too much to try and make him mine when I know I would fail."