Hidden Admiration

Lies. (Miyako's POV)

"Miyako!", my sister calls from the screen doors on the edge of our balcony. "You've been out here for like, an hour! Aren't you cold?"

I never realized how cold it was out here. I was too caught up in my thoughts to notice the small bumps forming on my arms.

"No, not really..." I reply, only half lying. "What time is it?", I ask.

"It's already nine. C'mon, come get ready for bed." she answers, waving me over.

I laugh silently to myself. Even though I'm approaching my junior year of high school, she still treats me like a child. "Alright", I say, following her into our living room as she proceeds to make us both a cup of tea.

Then it hit me. School is starting up again in less than a week. Less than a week.

Although I love school and what courses I'll be taking, I can't help but feel a bit nervous. A fresh start. New classmates. I hope Junior year is as easy to maintain good grades as last year was. I hope Asami and I have some classes together, which is very unlikely, since we only take four of the same subjects. She's more into drama and music, while I'm more into reading and writing. I guess I'll see when we get our schedule.

"Is something wrong?", questions Katsumi. "You look like you just saw someone out the window." she jokes as she pulls the tea bags out of the hot water. Do my emotions really show that much?

"Not really, haha. I'm fine", I protest as she hands me my peppermint tea. "Well, I'm going to go upstairs now, goodnight", I add, walking up the carpeted stairs.

"Night." I heard her say while I turn the corner into my bedroom. I put down my tea and work on getting ready for bed. Changing into pajamas, brushing my teeth, hair, and washing my face. Getting into bed, I grab my phone off my night table.

Logging into Facebook, I hear the all so familiar sound. Asami just texted me.

'hey, what up?', I see come up on the screen.

'Nothing really, just laying down. You?' I reply.

'lol same, are you nervous for school? I kinda am...'

'Haha, yeah, a bit.'

I didn't think she was going to reply, since it's already been five minutes without one. I was just about to log off when I saw the blue bubble indicating she was typing.

'soo, did you meet anyone over the summer? ;)', she finally replied.

I stopped for a moment. When I think of it, I never really did anything this summer, nonetheless meet a boy.

'Pfft, you know me. No boy would be interested in me :P'

'you never know, there'll be boys in some of your classes ;)'

'Haha, whatever Asami. Go to sleep, goonight :P'

'g'night' she answered, putting an end to this conversation.

Seriously, who would be interested in me? I stutter too much, I can't even keep a conversation going. How am I going to get a boyfriend?

Oh god, I'm starting to sound like Asami.

Oh well. I'll worry about that some other day. I'm not really that concerned. I better get some sleep now, I need to get into a sleep scedule for when school comes.

I put down my phone, and let my mind wander wherever it pleases.