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Emotionless or is she?

"Have you no feelings once so ever!"
I watched as the young woman, who was one of many of my cadets, standing in front of me cried her eyes out for her now passed loved one. Her husband had died on our just finished expedition and she won't stop yelling at me for not showing any hint of emotion towards her lost lover. Cadets surround us clearly curious as to what I will say and do. I turn an eye to my right to see Captain Levi looking over at me. 'So he is also curious.' Truth was that I did once have emotions but that girl died long ago. Not even Levi, Hanji, or Erwin knew why I never expressed any feelings. I wanted to go back to my office cause I hated talking with other cadets, commanders and captains. "Did you know..." The women's eyes widen as she wasn't expecting me to talk. "That once you come to know love, you come to know hate. This is why you show hate towards me for showing no hint of emotion towards your lost lover. I may seem unemotional, Cadet." The woman looks back to me. "But I know more about emotions and their consequences than you ever will." Everyone was completely shocked. The young women before me was so shocked in fact that she took a moment to respond. "Wh-What do you mean? Have you ever loved someone?" She snapped back at me. "Even if I did and if I was even willing to tell you about that certain person, I'm sure you wouldn't believe my shitty past. Also I will ask you one thing, I don't give a fuck if you hate me but please let him live on in your heart." Everyone was even more shocked at my request. "I did truly love that person but he's gone, dead because of shitty people higher then us!" I sighed after yelling. "I turned off my emotions cause if I cried for every person I lost," I chuckled causing the woman to flinch once again. "I wouldn't be stable, my mind would have broke cause after all..." I look at her dead in the eyes. "A person can only handle so much heartbreak." Throughout my whole talk, I kept a blank and stoic face. And now, I walked out leaving the poor young woman who was once before me, dazed and trembling. I walked to the survey corps HQ and there, when I was finally in my office, Levi approached me. The man reminded me so much of him, I truly do miss Rivaille.
"I'm the only person who you talk to and yet you have never once told me that you care for somebody." He sounded angry. "I never considered you cared and besides I could've been lying to the shitty cadet." I stated. "That's bullshit. I could tell just by looking at you, that you care for someone yet you won't admit it." "What the hell do you expect me to do, Levi?! Just confess that I once was a small girl with dreams but oh my parents beated the shit outta me and let's see I lost the boy that meant the fucking world to me! That girl is fucking dead, happiness never was for me!"

Levi's Point Of View~

My eyes widen from surprise. (Name) yelled angrily at me. I had never seen any emotion from her much less one like this. "I..." Before I could reply she yelled at me once more.
"You what?! Expect me to actually admit my feelings about a person that you fucking people killed?!" As soon as she said that, her eyes filled with tears; while mine widen once again in even more surprise. "The one you love...was killed by the survey corps?" She looked at me with a look full of despair and it seemed she was looking at someone else. "Yes, he got killed just because his uncle was teaching him horrible things but he didn't know better! I didn't know better, I murdered people with him a-and I didn't give a shit about them! I only cared to be with him and to die with him!" She pulled her sleeves up and ripped the bandages off showing me million of red and pink lines across her arms. "I tried to join him but fucking God wants me to suffer more in the shitty life!" I tried to say something before doing so, she grabs a knife that reminded me of my own from before. "And to make matters worse, you fucker!" She points the knife at me. "You fucking look like him, hell even sound like him! I almost forgot he died when I first met you but no worries," My eyes widens while she said that but after she finished. She raises the knife towards her neck, I was too shocked to realize what she was doing. "I c-can finally see hi-him, my sweet Rivaille..." My heart stopped for a sec when she said my name before slicing her scarred neck. "R-Rivaille, I'm c-co-coming..." She said while choking on her blood which made me unfreeze making me run to her. "(Na-Name)! Damn it, you're not fucking dying today!" I pick her up carefully making sure she wouldn't choke on her own blood. I started running towards Hanji's quarters. "Hanji! Erwin! Fuck, anyone!" I screamed for someone to answer. I feel a wet hand on my face, I look to her. "Why are you fucking smiling?!" She just chuckles, love visible in her eyes. "I am finally going to him, Levi. I'm going to see my Raven, my dear blood thirsty raven.."
I nearly dropped her when she said those words. "(NickName)..?"

"Hey, Raven!" I turn to see the small girl who nicknamed me Blood Thirsty Raven. 'I told her to not call me that and just why does she call me that? Is it because I usually have blood on me? Yea, maybe.' I smiled at her. She smiles back and I see the bread in her small hands. "I was able to steal some bread!" I nodded and patted her head. "You sure did, (Nickname)."

To be continued 😂