I am dead.
Honestly, I've been dead this whole time. Not to say that I was never alive, because I was. I held Cleo. I kissed Cleo. I told her "I love you" and "I miss you" and "I really need you right now because the whole world's falling apart and for some reason you keep me together." I still do. I just don't know if she hears me anymore. My mother does sometimes, but she was never as cynical as Cleo. Personally, I don't think Cleo is ready to listen to what I have to say. She has herself convinced that death grasps her doorknob, which is ridiculous. Cleo isn't going to die any time soon. I can feel it.
I know that she had met someone else. He's good for her. I was afraid that Cleo would hold a gun to her head. She still does, it's just nowhere near as noticeable as it once was. She wants to die. The thing is, neither him or I will let that happen. We will keep her walking and spitting sarcastic words for as long as we can. Why? Because we both love her. I don't know if she loves him. She probably feels that she isn't capable of love anymore. For that, I am partly responsible. What kind of asshole loves someone and teaches them to love only to get shot? Frankly, I hate myself a little bit more everyday for that. I hate the amount of pain I've put everyone in.
Naturally, I am jealous of him. His fingers can roam Cleo's body and dance along her words. He's almost as witty as her. Almost. Almost, almost, almost. I almost lived. She almost died. We almost survived. But we didn't. We couldn't. So I hope they do. I hope he plants a garden and brings her bouquets of lavender everyday, because that's her favorite flower. Hell, I hope he finds out that lavender is her favorite flower. I hope they go swing dancing in their 40's finest and I hope he falls deeper in love with every spin. I hope they have a fight, one where objects are thrown and words are slung. But then I hope he slips, or she trips over her speech and they are too busy laughing to continue to fight.
Most of all, I hope he changes her. I hope she changes him, too. That's what she did to me.
And I couldn't be more grateful that she finally found someone good enough to do the same for her.
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The end.
Well, at least for now.
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Cerita Pendek"I hate how the human race complicates things. You're born, and then you die. The space between that is a grey area. It's a blank line. It's all up to you on how you fill the line. You can write good or bad or spontaneous or wonderful-it's up to you...
