Mating Season

Chapter Seven: I Feel Weird

I felt a slight chill hit me causing me to stir out of my peaceful slumber, when I opened my eyes and looked at my surroundings and I could tell that I wasn't in my room anymore, what the hell? where am I at then? and how did I get here?, as I shifted a little I felt two arms tighten around me causing me to look right behind me only to be greeted by a sleeping Suga behind me holding me close to him and I couldn't help but smile, my poor big brother he strives so hard to provide for everyone else alone and instead for himself and he's so exhausted from it that it's not funny, he's always been that way ever since we where all children and he's always gonna be that way no matter what.

As I laid there staring at my exhausted big brother I heard slight movement beside me and Suga and I turn and look only to see a sleeping J-Hope in the recliner beside the couch that me and Suga are on and I smiled more, they both are so exhausted trying to take care of me and fill the shoes of my parents and Aunt and Uncle to make sure im ok, and then their even more exhausted tryin to also take care or Jimin, V, Jungkook, RM, and Jin along with each other and trying to fill MR and MRS Kim's shoes, they have so much on their plate im afraid it's gonna kill them and I cant loose them their all I got, with out them I have no one.

As I sat there watching my big brother and cousin sleeping afraid to move and wake them it then struck me that I was in Suga's study, I remember waking up last night from that horrible nightmare in tears, I had screamed so loud that Suga and J-Hope heard me and they came running to my aid to make sure I was ok and that Mark wasn't trying to hurt me, I had told them about the nightmare I had and they tried to calm me down and lay me back down but I didn't want to go back to sleep alone in that room, I was afraid the nightmare would come back or worse....become reality, so Suga and J-Hope brought me in here and Suga laid me down with him and J-Hope read me my favorite story...Just like they use to do when I was little and I had multiple nightmares after we lost Mommy and Daddy and Auntie and Uncle.

As I remembered what happened last night I felt weird all of a sudden, I was over taken with an insane thirst, I grabbed my glass of water thinking it was just morning dry throat and I chugged it down but that didn't even help me any at all, I also all of a sudden felt a sudden urge and neediness but I didn't know for what?, What in the hell is going on with me?, I then felt a siring pain in my mouth and quickly touched my mouth, what the hell?, it felt as if something was stuck in my teeth?, did I not brush my teeth last night after dinner like I thought I did?, I put my fingers in my mouth and ran them over my teeth only to feel something sharp slice through my skin of my finger, " ouch...fuck", I pulled my fingers out of my mouth and noticed that my finger was cut open and bleeding.

As I saw my own blood I felt a sudden dizziness and my throat began burning with thirst and my urge grew stronger, what the hell is going on with me?, am I craving my own....blood?...what the fuck?, next thing I know im bringing my finger closer and closer to my mouth like im in some kind of trance....what the hell? am I seriously about to drink my own blood right now?, just as I was about to place my finger back in my mouth to drink the blood I heard Suga's half asleep but stern voice ring out behind me, " ROSITA? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?", I quickly looked over at Suga with my eyes tearing up, " Suga I don't know...I don't know what's going on with me....im scared".

Suga's eyes went from anger and fury to confusion and concern as he gently grabbed my finger that was bleeding and he examined it at this time J-Hope then woke up and looked over at us with concern as he spoke up, " what happened? is Rosita ok?", Suga looked up at J-Hope, " yea she's alright she just hurt her finger that's all...could you go grab me the first aid kit please and bring it here?", J-Hope stood up, " yea ill go grab it", me and Suga watched as J-Hope left the study to go fetch the first aid kit then Suga looked right at me and asked a question," what happened Rosita? why is your finger bleeding?", I looked at Suga, " I don't know Suga? I woke up and started feeling weird".