VIXX Oneshots (Japanese Version)

2. Can't Say (LEOBIN)

I didn't write this story because of Hongbin's current situation about his live stream because...I just can't make a story of it like it's a joke...maybe if it goes on and I'm sure he's already fine. I might but right now, this story was written because #1. For leobing shippers and #2. While I was watching VIXX's old videos, I read some comments saying "I thought Hongbin also have the same voice as Ken and Leo...blah blah..." and that they were disappointed. It pisses me off. There's lot of them then I felt bad for Binnie because he deserve to be there just so if you watch MyIdol. He don't excel with the same thing Leo and Ken do but he is amazing just the way he is. He's not my bias but I like him so much. T.T I'm so disappointed with people who likes to discriminate others. We're all not perfect after all. Geez. I went too much. Well angst at first but believe me. Too much fluff at the end.

(Warning! ⚠ Angst. Mention of Depression.)

Leo made himself aa convincing as he could. Advising someone who is fighting agaisnt depression like convincing a kid that going to the park ia not okay when it's raining. They either have this inflexible minds about the hopelessness ans negativity they believed or they'de aware of their problem but can't stop yeilding to despair.

He also went to this stage and is still working on it so he thought it's easy to comfort his friend. No, screw that. His crush. Hongbin has been his crush ever since Beautiful Liar era. It's because the younger always support him. He visits whenever time allows him to the music video filming. During those times, he is still like a snail; makinf progree as much as he can but hides in his shell when the situation gets difficult.

Thankfully, he have him by his side. He and Wonshik weren't so close to the point that Leo can open up himself to the rapper which made him scared to disappoint him especially that most of their songs were written and produced by him. He was scared not to be able to meet his expectation and ruin everything.

He was lonely one time due to stress, tiredness, and anxiety but Hongbin came to him. He started with his usual playful self then soothed him. He cheered him up by saying effective encouragements such as he wouldn't be choosen as part of the VIXX first sub-unit if he was incapable of playing his part. He also showered him by peaises about the good qualities that he possesed. In just a moment, his courage surpassed all the weaknesses that build up in him. It was all thanks to Hongbin.

Now, it scared him to see the one who give him strength, now being weak with self-confidence. Of course he don't want him to turn like how he used to before. That was a scary past that he never wish to happen to him again so he is trying his best to give back the kindness he received from him. He thought it will be easy since he had been through it himself but he was wrong. Just seeing him cry is digging up his own pain too.

His finger wiped Hongbin's tears. "Hongbin-a. Stop crying." he said then menatlly cursed himself. He knows that shutting up a weeping lonely person when he needs it is so rude. However, Hongbin doesn't seem to care as he keep tearing up. His hands wrapped around his knees that are pressed to his chest.

Leo found him at the corner of his and Hakyeon's shared room when he came home from his duty on public service of his mandatory military. Instead of going home, he decided to go there. Somehow, he felt like visiting the others but the dorm is empty when he got there as if no one had been there for few days now until he heared small hicups from afar. He followed the noise and when he went to that room, he found Hongbin at the corner of the room.

He immediately sat down in front of him and cupped his cheeks and tried to calm him. It took only few seconds before the weeping man speak. "Hyung. I don't deserve to be still here. I should just terminate my contrac-"

"Yah!" Leo lose it and yelled. "What are you saying?" Hongbin stopped only for a second then resumed again.

"I'm a good for nothing in this group. I knew it. I was only choosen to debut because I have this face but there's actually nothing else I can show." Leo was speechless. "I'm a rapper but can't rap like Ravi. I call myself a singer but my voice don't have the quality for an idol...I'm the visual of VIXX but honestly. N hyung, Ken hyung, Ravi...and you...you are all just fit to it. That title was only given to me so I have something to make me special but in reality, I'm nothing good." Leo but his lip to prevent himself from crying. He can't now. He can't show weakness in front of his dongsaeng who needs to be comforted.