The Inspiration

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Here I am again...

Spending my days, nights, hours and literally every minute of my live, in the past 3 months, working in the damn studio.

Well, honestly not just in the past 3 months but that's my live anyway. Dedicated every part of me to music. I simply love music and luckily music loves me too... nah, literally its people who loves and it gives me one of thousands reason to do music.

And now, I'm in the middle of producing my second album. I was really excited and I'm eager to gives my fans a good music. Sajangnim already gives me a lot of support, like he always did. And I definitely don't want to make the people that support me down.

Sometimes it is really hard to fulfil people expectation when they expect you too much. I've been called of one of good musician in this industry, a good producer, a hit song maker, a genius, and another. I won't lie that It makes me proud and happy, but it also burdensome at the same time. It's a bliss and curse at the same time. People always expect me to produce a gold egg all the time. it's challenging and worrying at the same time.

At least this is my solo album, not for the group, BIGBANG. At least when it gets bad, its me who'll take the critique and shit. I just can't take my band mate down with me. What kind of leader I am if I did. But it lonesome to work alone, well not practically alone when I had teddy hyung, choice, and all who help me, but still.

And the fact that I lack of inspiration is bother me. I've been doing anything to regain ideas and inspiration but still. None of it comes. My mind just went blank and all. Another fact that I stay in the studio for the past 4 days to find the idea but none of it comes is really frustration. I really can't waste any more time. I had my deadline and its not good. Glancing at the clock that shows 9 pm. Should I sitting here alone, in the studio, having my own thought and talking alone, until I earn my mood and inspiration back, that I'm not really sure when.

Sighing, for like a million time, oh yeah million. I guess its time to seeking my inspiration in a best way. I pulled out my phone and dial his number.

He didn't pick his phone on my first attempt. Aishh this kid really

'Yes hyung?' Finally!!!

'Where are you now? Korea or Japan?'

'huh? My apartment? in Korea.' he sounds confused but I don't take time for him to think, 'Why Hyung?'

'Good, I'll come by. Don't go anywhere!' I replied him and hang up without give him a chance to reply

.......

'eh, you really come?' he said when he opened the door and welcomed me to come.

'Yeah, and I bring pizza and beer' I replied and put the pizza in the small table at his living room and sit on the floor.

'You know, Hwangsabbu hyung just warning me for my eating habit, its unhealthy'

'I know, and I also know that he warning you, which means that you should eat at least 3 times a day and not skipping any meals cause you looks skinnier and unhealthy. Besides its not like you can resist this food'

'Hmm... maybe you right' he nodded his head and shrugged

'You know I'm always right. Anyway maknae just take care your own health, don't wait until there's people tell you to!'

This kid always takes his care lightly when he's busy and it makes people worry with him all the time.

'hmmm'. See?! he don't take that seriously!!, ' So what's up hyung?' he said while sitting on the floor with me, ignoring the sofa, and bringing a glass of water for me.