The Mysterious Spiritual Journey

The Mysterious Spiritual Journey

By De'veon Niquel Mcmahon

Table Of Contents

Chapter 1: Roots

Chapter 2: Disconnected

Chapter 3: Blockbuster Friday

Chapter 4: Little House On The Mountain

Chapter 5: Flower House

Chapter 6: The Tree Of Wisdom

Chapter 7: The Youthful Spirit

Chapter 8: Gilroy CA,

Chapter 9: Reconnected

Chapter 10: Sunset

Chapter One: Roots

Roots: The part of a plant which attaches it to the ground or to a support, typically underground, conveying water, and nourishment to the rest of the plant. Another definition of the word "Roots": The basic cause, source, or origin of something.

We all heard the slang "Stick to your roots" or what I heard from Kanye West when he raps about a line saying " I stuck to my roots, I'm like Jimmy Fallon" do to the fact that Jimmy Fallon band being the talented group The Roots.

It made me think about my own roots lately the roots of my ancestors, the roots of where I been growing up for Nineteen years, and the roots of who I am. For the past Ten Months I felt a sense of not knowing who I am or who I want to be sleepless nights of tossing and turning thinking how others viewed me at the time, yet do they see me as a leader or just another nigga.

I tend to ask myself questions like do I want to be a rebellious rebel and take a stand for everything I believe in or take step back and observe from the back until I come up with a better solution to approach it, yet I always tell myself you're the leader of the new school and the youth but yet I still don't feel confident with that title and role until I know my two little brother's look up to me first.

Luckily the mindset I'm entering now I believe my day has finally come where I've decided to explore my past and see what the meaning of my name is and knowing the backstory roots on my last name Mcmahon on which stories does it tell pretty much the good, the bad, and the ugly, but I feel like I'm erasing every ugly and bad aspect of my last name and change it from a nightmare to a dream in a ten year span.

When I talk about the ten year spam process I tend to proceed the first nine years of my life when I was getting around to the age of eight or nine, my last name just constantly reminded me of my deadbeat dad Ben Mcmahon, yet I always wonder what if I had a conversation with him on why he was missing out on my life and but gave me his last name.

The second half of my life between the ages ten through nineteen I started to grow and flourish into my last name more I've always had split personalities when it came to my name everyone knew De'veon and what he brings to the table and likes and dislikes, but nobody knows Mcmahon on what impact he brings to people lives and his love an hate for certain things.

I found more and more what Mcmahon enjoys more than De'veon does and that was being himself and having a carefree attitude towards everything I do and I feel somedays, I wake up and see everyone trying to be like everyone while stressing to fit in with society, which isn't the right path to go down, yet De'veon is the one setting himself towards unnecessary high standards and trying to fit in with the copycat society.

The origin of my last name dates more into mid-2017 when I realized I wasn't genuinely happy with myself or happy around others I frequently wanted to be alone constantly with thoughts and music until I started wanting to take social matters into my own hands with my community in Lemoore California.