OKAY I KNOW IVE BEEN GONE FOREVER DUHRNJEJR-
Alex's POV-
I can't believe John is stock alive. I don't think I've booked a plane ticket this fast before, it's a lot of money but it's worth it if I can see him again. I need to apologize for what I did all those years ago, I need to see him.
"Laf I don't know what to do" I said with a sad voice. Laf looked at me confused "Alex my friend, what do you mean?" I sigh and lean back in my chair. "I mean what if we do find him, what if he doesn't want anything to do with me." I'm worrying myself a lot "I mean come on laf let's me honestly I treated him like shit before his disappearance." Laf looks away and sighs. "Listen Alex, if John is still the same John we knew all those years ago he'll forgive you. Trust me mon Ami" laf gave me a reassuring smile. I smiled back but I was really worried. After all I just impulsively bought a plane ticket to go and search France for my long lost boyfriend, well ex boyfriend. Who I treated like dirt before he disappeared so that doesn't help my case at all.
Johns POV-
Holy shit I fucked up, I fucked up so bad. How could someone fuck up this bad. I need to get out of France, like now. I don't have the money to get out of here right now is the problem.
Would they try to come and find me though? After all these years? They didn't care enough before why would they care now? Maybe I'm just overthinking everything and they won't come look for me. I hope that's the case anyway. Oh god what if they told Alexander and he comes looking for me, knowing Alex and his impulsive self he would come for me. Then again it's not like he cared about me before I left. He left me once he'll do it again.
I miss him sometimes his greased hair, eye bags, brown intelligent eyes, his smile, his smart comments and just everything about him I missed so so much. I don't know if I could forgive him though for what he did. He kind of broke me and used me. That day he reminded me for Frances in a way. Never mind that I'll just stay alert and keep my head down..
Sorry it was kinda short I'm trying to get back into writing haha
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I miss his smiles... LAMS (SEQUEL TO FAKE SMILES~)
FanfictionAfter Johns death Alexander has been a mess. He asked Eliza to be his wife... She said yes. Alex thinks this is gonna make his forget Johns death. does it work? Is John even really dead?
