I thought he will never be mine and I know it from the start.
But here I am standing in front of our Alpha and our whole pack announcing our engagement.
But what does this engagement mean to him?
We where arrange. He never really loved me and that's what hurts the most. Being so close to the person I truly love but can never be mine.
I am weak. Too weak for a submissive wolf.
But I am the Bets's son. My father loved me so much that he requested for a safe place to grow up for me. And then our Alpha Daven being his bestfriend agreed upon the request.
I grew up in this place. And I grew up watching him. Javen. The beautiful midnight wolf I always admire. Before, I thought my feelings was platonic but my bestfriend, Jay who was a dominant, told me how I looked at him.
"You look at him like his the only person you can see in this world." He once said to me.
And yes, he was the only person I loved like this and I knew deep inside I will never love like the way I love him.
"Javen, my son, you may now initiate the engagement." Our Alpha Daven told Javen, my any minute now, future fiancée. His big warm hands caressed my shoulder.
But no feelings were emitted from those warm touches only an order he needed to do. He touched the area where my shoulder and collar bone meets, the area where he will put his mark.
The mark I would gladly accept but forcibly given to me.
I can only shake not from anticipation but from the fear. Fear he will back out any minute. The fear of rejection.
But those feeling never came. He continued to caress that area. He slowly licked that area filling it with his saliva.
A shiver ran down my body when he did that. Now, I fear for the pain.
He bared his canine fangs and his eyes turned gold.
"This will hurt but please bear with me, I want this antics to be finished as soon as I can to get out of here."
Now that's the fear I've been waiting.
He suddenly bit the area where he licked and the sudden release of his pheromone caused my body to feel pain.
I never thought that feeling both the fear of rejection and pain can be this hurtful. Emotionally and physically he wrecked me inside out.
A painful scream left my lips and a river of tears bore from my eyes that time. I hated how I love him even if he did this to me.
His pheromones ran through my veins. Marking every part of me his. I can always be his...
But will he be mine?
It hurts so much that I can only closed my eyes and surrender to the darkness.
I woke up with a start. Soft furs were made for my bed that I was laying at.
This was not my room. Must be Javen. I never really saw his room before. I never thought I will.
The door opened and Javen entered with a glass of water in his hand.
"Your awake. Here have some water," I reached for the water and accidentally brush my fingers to his. A shiver ran down my spine causing the glass to slip my weak hands. The glass of water shattered and the pieces and water was scattered all over our foot.
"Shit" Javen cried.
"I... I'm... I'm sorry" I kneel near where the glass shattered and picked up the pieces.
