to the moon and back

Prologue

Emily's POV.

"I just don't know... I don't know what I want, Joseph, I don't want to lose you but I can't take this anymore..." I say quietly. Joseph holds my hand while I start crying.

"Hey, it'll be fine, we'll be fine! And yes, I know that I'm moving to San Francisco next week, but don't forget that we've been through so many things... together." he squeezes my hand and looks into my eyes. His eyes are dark yet bright and sparkly. The lighting makes them look even more beautiful.

I turn around and walk towards the door while wiping my tears. I'm about to open the door when I suddenly feel his warm hands around my waist. He tries to hug me but I push him away and open the door. He slowly steps outside. I can see the pain in his eyes as I close the door.

I get my pink earbuds out of my pocket and lie down on the couch. I start crying, while listening to Lana Del Rey's best album.

My whole world just stopped. Why did I send him away? He meant the world to me and I left him, only because he's moving to San Francisco next week... what's wrong with me? Even though I know that long distance relationships don't work, we still could've tried our best to make it work. That's sort of what I blame myself most for. I didn't even try. I gave up on him because I was afraid that I won't be able to deal with the pain of missing him. How selfish.

I call Bruce, my best friend. When he still hasn't answered the phone call after a minute I hang up and put my phone away. It's late already and I should get some sleep. I close my eyes and slowly fall asleep.