can't be trusted

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fast forward to two days later
( I wake up and decide to hop in to shower)
(I go into the bathroom and lock the door. u get undressed and take a shower. While u were in the shower u broke down. u were crying so much. scratch that, u were sobbing and sat down letting the water hit ur face)
( i don't know why I was crying so much. I've never cried this much in awhile. I really loved this boy and now I can't even go a day without crying about him. I miss his kisses and seeing him everyday having the time of my life and how he somehow always made me feel happy and like it was him and me in the world and nothing else matters. I want that back but i can't go back. I don't want to show that I care about him anymore. I finally get out of the shower and decide to call josh)
J: hi what do u nee- wait were u crying
MJ: no I was showering
J: then why are ur eyes red and puffy
MJ: i don't know okay! just get ur ass over here pls. i need u
J: ok omw
fast forward to when josh get to ur house
(josh opens ur bedroom door with chocolate in one hand and a big teddybear in the other. u get up and give him a big hug. Josh has always been there for u when u needed someone besides the girls)
MJ: i don't know who I am anymore
MJ: like one day I'm this girl who doesn't need a guy and can just live a normal life then the next I need someone to hold and spend all my time with.
(Josh tosses u one of the chocolate bars)
MJ: thank u for bringing stuff too ( u say as u take a bite out of ur chocolate)
J: of course. chocolate is the best when u need some cheering up ( he smiles)
MJ: this is why I kept my heart locked up (u saw flopping on ur bed)
J: I get it
MJ: do you have any tips
J: well I think u should go talk to him
MJ: but what if he doesn't want to. For all I know he could be fucking a girl rn
J: well actually Payton hasn't rlly spoken to anyone. after u left he told me that he made a huge mistake and he doesn't know how to fix it because u are u know... who u are
MJ: like what? a reputation?
J: ya and he said he got scared and made a big mistake
MJ: now why isn't he saying this to me?
J: he wanted to give u space and he needed time by himself. he knows he made a mistake that can't be fixed easily and he is trying, I promise.
MJ: it doesn't really seem that promising right now
J: i know I know