Secretly Famous || Min Yoongi

41. Storm

I stand in silence as I stare at myself in my bathroom mirror.

I remember back to a secion I had with my therapist. She told me that I needed to work on my confidence more and my self image.

To be fair now in college my confidence has actually gotten better, but this past month it all pretty much disappeared and is non existand. 

"What makes you confident? When do you feel the most confident and happy?" She asked me.

I had to think about it for quite a while. I haven't felt confident in a long time so I didn't know how to answer that.

Until it finally hit me.

"When I sing." I told her.
"When I sing, when I perform. Anything with music, it has always been my way to escape."

"There you have your answer." She said with a smile.

But the problem was that Y/N wasn't the confident one. I have never been that. That has always been Storms job. She is the one who is always happy, who actually has a dream and purpose in life. She is the one who is always confident. She is all of the good things that are in me.

The biggest problem with me is, that I always forget, that Storm is a part of me.

She is me.

I am Storm.

I shouldn't separate myself from her. She isn't someone else. She is the good parts of me. She is my confidence. She is everything I always wanted to be.

She is someone I created to be all of the things I wasn't. And now it's time I break down that wall. It's time for me to stop separating us, it's time for Y/N and Storm to become one.

I walk out of the bathroom and grab my things before I head out of my apartment.

I think it's time for me to get a change.

***

"Where is Y/N?" Kris asks as he gets to her apartment.

"I don't know. She isn't here so I thought that she was with you." Colin tells him as he gets up from the couch.

"What? No, I just got back from the clinic." Kris says paniced. 

"Well then let's call her." Colin suggests.

But right then I come walking through the door.

"Y/N I almost had a heart attack, where-..." Kris stops mid sentence once he sees me. 

"What?" I ask him confused.

"Hey Y/N we were just worried that you-..." Just like Kris, Colin stops talking aswell.

"Seriously what is up with you guys?" I ask them as I put down my stuff.

"Y/N your hair. It's-" Kris states.

"Blue." Colin finishes his sentence.

"Oh, yeah I got it dyed. I kinda decided I needed a change." I tell them as if it is no big deal.

"That's quite a big change." Kris says calmly.

I just shrug my shoulders at his sentence.
"Do you guys like it?" 

"It's-" Kris gets quickly cut off by Colin.

"I LOVE IT." He almost shouts.
"Girl it looks amazing on you. Why didn't you tell me though that you went to the hair stylist, like I would have gone with you. But anyways I love it." 

Of course I couldn't have expected a different reaction from Colin.

I then look at Kris waiting for his answer.