Seducing My Ex-husband (Completed)

Kapitulo 5

05
His Death

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Ni hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakabalik sa bahay. Nor do I know how I managed to drive back home safely. Para bang hindi ko na kontrol kung anong ginagawa ko. Ni hindi ko pinansin ang mga nakasalubong kong kapitbahay.

'Martin died, Helga.'

Only those three words keep on flashing inside my mind. Like a broken record it was endlessly playing.

'I'm still longing to kiss him. I still want to see him, feel him.'

But those three words shattered my hopeless wish.

Wala sa sariling kinuha ko ang aking cellphone ng tumunog ito. The screen flash three times before my finger unconciously took a slide on the screen.

"Helga we have arrived!"

Masayang bungad ni Patricia.

"That's good."

"Nagpapahinga na si Thirdy sa kwarto. Kadarating lang kasi namin sa hotel. We really need to buy a property here. Para naman iwas hussle na kapag nagpupunta tayo dito."

"Yeah."

"Nakausap ko na kanina yung assistant ni Doctor Psyche sa susunod na araw pa daw mababakante ang schedule niya. Probably the consultation will take longer this time as Thirdy's showing repulsion towards the treatment."

Patricia sighed from the other line. "The jetlag's taking a toll on me."

"Rest na." I weakly coaxed her.

I am mentally tired and emotionally exhausted.

Sandaling natahimik ang nasa kabilang linya. I can imagine her frowning while massaging the space between her brows.

"What is the matter this time? Bakit, you sound so lethargic?" Her tired and worried voice woke me up from my thought. Guilt crept into me.

Natigilan ako sa kanyang pag-uusisa. Should I tell her? Alam niya ba? But if she knew she would have happily told me. Thoughts after thoughts keep swirling in my head.

Sa huli napahugot ako ng malalim na hininga. I calmed the raging emotion in me before reassuring her.

"Naninibago lang siguro ako. Namiss ko kasi kayo agad."

I tried to make my voice cheerful.

Silence welcomed my voice.

"May hindi ka ba sinasabi sakin?" her voice sound serious. Nananantiya.

"Wala naman. Bakit naman ako maglilihim sayo? Pat, you're overthinking again. Nami-miss ko lang kayo ni Thirdy."

I uncomfortably shift to the left side of the bed.

"You don't sound like yourself Helga."

I bit my lip. "I-I just. Nagkita kami ni Auntie Lena kanina. We talk about nothing much... She just send her condolences for M-martin to me."

I forced a chuckle between my lips.

The line went deadly silent.

Nanginig ang mga labi ko.

"You knew." Hindi makapaniwalang tinitigan ko ang aparato. Humigpit ang hawak ko dito. "Bakit hindi mo sinabi saakin? Patricia I deserve to know his death! How can you--- pano mo nagawang ilihim sa'kin ito?All this time ako lang pala ang walang alam? What, are you guys planning to tell me in the afterlife?"