infatuated. // lee donghyuck

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two days. in two days i will be leaving to see donghyuck for the first time.

so far i'm not feeling nervous, but it probably just hasn't hit me yet that i'm really going to seoul to meet him and spend over two weeks with him.

johnny, jaehyun, mark, and even a few of haechan's other friends have helped prepare this surprise and have promised not to spoil it. it's been so difficult keeping this secret and i just want it to work out so badly.

over these past few weeks, almost an entire month, i have gotten so close to him. we've had calls that last up to five hours with us just talking to one another and laughing over stupid things, crying over the face we want to see each other, and just getting to know one another to the point there's nothing else we can think of to say until the next call where we have a billion other things to tell one another.

last night johnny asked me something. this something means a lot to me and i had to take time and think about this.

he asked me if i loved donghyuck.

see, i don't know what love is. i know what the love between family is like, but romantically... i don't know how it feels. from what i have seen in movies and read in books, love is something that you feel deep down inside you, and gosh, i even looked up how you could tell on the internet.

so do i love him? i think so. maybe when i see him for the first time i'll know for sure.

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packing... hm... i don't know what to pack.

clothes, obviously. other essentially- again, obviously. but what kinds of things... for clothes i could pack warm weather clothes but... i have an idea. i'm not gonna back any sweatshirts.

i remember what johnny said about donghyuck. about how he'd want to give me his sweatshirt. so... there's no point in packing one.

gosh, i can't even contain my excitement that i'm going to be meeting my boyfriend for the first time. will he cry? will i cry? will he hug me tightly? will he be surprised? will he be happy? i guess i'll just have to find out in two days.

after thoroughly looking through my drawers and closet, picking out outfits and extras, i place everything into my suitcase, zippering it up.

i started packing today so i can spend the next two days just relaxing. i'm beginning to slowly feel anxious to leave because of how excited i am, but there's still so much longer until i actually get to see him... four days to be exact.

tonight should be easy to get through. i'll call donghyuck and then hopefully fall asleep easily afterwards are just watch some netflix to fall asleep. then there's tomorrow... and then the next day i leave. simple enough, right?

after changing into some sweatpants and a tank top i lay down in my bed, only my lamp on so there would still be enough light. i get under my blankets, then calling my boyfriend.

i only audio call, since i don't know, i'm pretty tired and i just feel like doing a voice call. i hold the phone up to my ear, laying down on my side in bed.

d: "hey baby."
y: "hey."
d: "are you in bed?"
y: "mhm."
d: "good girl."
y: *slightly laughs*
d: "let me guess, it's... ten o'clock."
y: "yep. you're right."
d: "ah, good."
y: "mhm."
d: "mhm."
y: "mhm."
d: *laughs*
d: "why didn't you facetime me instead? i wanna see you."
y: "i don't know, just in case i'd fall asleep or something."
d: "tired?"
y: "mhm."
d: "then go to sleep."
y: "but i can't."
d: "well, why can't you?"
y: "because i have a more important thing to attended to."
d: *slightly laughs*
d: "oh really? and what's this more 'important thing'?"
y: "take a guess."
d: "your cat?"
y: "he is pretty important... but no. try again."
d: "hm... is it..."
d: "me?"
y: "yep. how'd you get it right?"
d: "lucky guess?"
y: *laughs*
d: "ugh, your laugh sounds so beautiful... i can't wait to hear it in person in two weeks."
y: "yeah..."
d: *speaks in a whiny voice*
d: "i just want the day to come."
y: "trust me... it'll come sooner than you expect..."
d: "i hope so. it feels like it's taking forever."
*there's a bit of silence.*
y: *yawns*
d: "baby~"
y: "what?"
d: "go to bed~"
y: "but i won't be able to if you hang up on me, i just know i won't."
d: "then how about this?"
d: "i'll sing you to sleep."
y: "sing me to sleep?"
d: "mhm."
d: "just put your phone down next to your head and i'll sing to you... what should i sing?"
y: "anything... just anything that will help me go to sleep."
d: "okay, i have a few ideas"
d: "just close your eyes and get comfy so you will sleep well."
y: *does as he says*
d: "okay..."
d: *clears throat*