"Jordi we can't be" I muttered as my tears are started to fall in my eyes. I need to be strong enough to push him away. He look at me with eyes full of sadness and his tears are threatening to fall.
"What if I don't want to let you go?" He said looking straight to my eyes, I look away and started to cry. I really love him God knows how much I valued our memories while we're together but this time we can't just really be together. "Sam, baby I will fight for us, ako na ang lalaban just stay with me " he said while begging me to change my decision.
Damn! He's making the situation hard for me.
"Jordi, you know we can't do anything about our situation, Our family is against us!" I said while crying and left the room.
The memories are still vivid to me and everytime I remembered that scene, It breaks my heart. It's been five years since I moved here in States and It's been five years since I left my home. He's probably married already and have a family. For the past five years yaan lagi ang laman ng panaginip ko, ang sakit sakit kasi gusto ko na maka move on! Pero parang laging may pumipigil saakin na huwag ko siyang kalimutan, pero ako yung may gusto kung ano man yung nangyari saamin... Ako yung umalis sa tabi niya mas pinili ko na huwag nalang lumaban kahit siya gusto niya.
Eh anong magagawa ko pamilya na namin ang may ayaw kung ano man ang meron kami dati. God knows how much I want to run back to him and tell him how much I love him. But I guess we are one of the victims of " pinagtagpo pero hindi tinadhana" it hurts but I need to pretend that I'm okay and hopefully when I comeback, I can explain to him why I need to left him that night. And hopefully when that time comes he will listen and forgive me and maybe we will get the answers that we want to hear. And sana pag dating ng oras na pagtatagpuin ulit kami ng tadhana sana hindi pa huli ang lahat.
Damn! Paano pag huli na pala ang lahat, what if he's already married. And ofcourse I know that he hates me because of what happened five years ago.
The next morning I woke up because of the sound of my alarm, Ugh I'm not a morning person but I really need to get ready for work. Bumangon na ako para makapag ayos para hindi ako malate sa coffee shop na pinapasukan ko, I've been working at the coffee shop for one year already. Ayoko kasi yung wala akong ginagawa since tapos naman na ako mag-aral kaya naisipan ko rin mag trabaho para may sariling ipon ako habang nandito ako, sabi ng parents ko they will give me a heads up kung kailan ako uuwi. Gustuhin ko man na umuwi na sa Pilipinas ay hindi pa ako nakaka tanggap ng tawag galing sakanila, they will usually call me to check on me and if may mga important things that I need to know.
Habang nagtatrabaho ako para sa araw na yon, bilang may pumasok na customer pero hindi ko na ito tinignan dahil may customer pa ako na kailangan asikasuhin. Sobrang haggard ko na pero masaya naman ako so okay lang.
"Miss can I have one order of iced latte and one glazed donut". Order ng customer na nasa harap ko, pag angat ko ng tingin ay laking gulat ko kung sino iyon, I don't know how to react my mouth form an o shaped and I feel so nervous. "Uh-is that all sir?" I asked and looked away. "Yes" he said looking straight to my eyes. Tatalikod na sana ako ng may humatak sa braso ko,
"Yes, do you need anything kuya Juan?". I asked him kinakabahan ako hindi ko alam bakit at bakit ba kasi andito yan, oh wait baka mamaya kasama niya pala si Jordi!
"Can we talk Sam?". He asked with full of hope in his eyes, "Uh kuya may trabaho pa ako" I said trying to escape from his hold.
"Sam please saglit lang". He pleaded, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko nahihiya ako sakanila magkakapatid dahil sa nangyari pero alam kong wala akong takas ngayon na nandito si kuya Juan sa harap ko. "Okay kuya" I said and place his order in the tray.
Wala nagsalita saaming dalawa, it's like we're waiting for each other to initiate a conversation.
"Sam how are you?". Finally kuya Juan asked while sipping on his drink. Sa tono palang ng pagkasabi niya ay alam ko na marami siyang gustong itanong saakin. "I'm doing fine,I guess?" I chuckled to ease the awkwardness between us. He sighed and look straight into my eyes
"Sam when are you going back?" He asked, I looked away because I don't know what to say, "Sam he's waiting for you" he said that caught my attention.
"Kuya wag kang mag joke, you know the situation before I left Philippines" I chucked and looked up so that my tears won't fall. " He's been a wreck since you left him". He said kita sa mata niya ang lungkot para sa kapatid niya, mas lalo ko tuloy gusto na umuwi pero hindi pa pwede.
"Sam it's been five years, hindi ka ba na hohomesick dito?". He asked while finishing his food, "Kuya uuwi rin ako promise pero hindi pa ngayon". I shot back and looked at him and smiled.
"Okay if you say so, the fam misses you so much". He said while smiling and I can't contain my happiness so I hugged him "miss ko na rin kayo kuya". I said and hugged him tighter. We bid our goodbyes because kuya Juan said that he has some errands to do and I need to go back to work.
But suddenly what kuya Juan told me earlier is just keeps on repeating in my head "Sam he's waiting for you ". Imbis na makatulog eh napuyat ako kakaisip nanaman tungkol kay Jordi.
Maybe it's time to go back home... I don't need anyone's approval, I'm going home and I will fix my wrong decisions, I know it's five years late but I will still fix at all cost.
Jordi I'm coming home...
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hello, stranger| Jordi Gomez De Liaño Story (On Hold)
Teen Fiction"...hello, stranger you used to be mine".
