4 years ago....
The house smelled of spiked drinks and sweaty teenagers. Solo red cups attached to a bunch of high drunks filled the room. The stereo was blasting music practically shaking the whole house. Passed out lightweights cluttered the floor only causing more havoc.
this was my kind of environment.
other people saw parties as a distraction or a place to get drugged up and result in being raped or something. I on the other hand, saw it as an opportunity to live life on the wild side. I want to live out all of my young years to the fullest.
"well if it isnt the gay boy"
meet liam, the most stereotypical frat boy you will ever meet in your life. He stood 6'1, only spoke in sports terminology, a brain the size of a grape, and not to mention he was a "playboy" as he calls it . In my eyes, he gets passed around more than the black plague, but we dont speak on that.
"what do you want liam" I grunted at him, instantly throwing my eyes to the ground.
liam was known for being incredibly homophobic and had always been aggressive towards me since we were in middle school. From small teasing to having him and his friends jump me in the school bathrooms.
"get a drink with me please" he begged me with pleading eyes.
"ummm... i dont- I dont know" I rubbed my arm to distract myself from growing with anxiety.
"oh come on gay boy" he chuckled to himself. "it's just one drink, dont be a suck ass tonight" he playfully punched me in the arm that I was still rubbing.
with the peer pressure still sitting on my shoulders, I managed to gain the confidence to look him in his demanding yet persuasive eyes.
" No, I dont want to alright" I said with a stern voice, still flooding with anxiety but asserting my dominance.
clearly taken aback, his tongue poked the inside of his cheek and he threw his head back. His fist enclosed and swung back and forth, meeting in the front with a clap.
"why do you have to be such a fucking prick? its just a drink"
"fine but only ONE drink" I only gave in because I knew he would torment me until the death of me.
"YESS!!" he harshly pulled his arms back in victory.
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Hours had went by and I had countless drinks. My head was dizzy, my body was shaking, my clothes smelt of sweat and alcohol, the taste of other drinks slowly disappeared, and liam and I played cup pong as if we were best friends.
life was great.
After about another hour or so, people started leaving but I stuck around because I was too drunk to go anywhere let alone drive home.
"hey faggot you need to leave" jason, one of franks friends said as he looked up at me from the pool table.
"i'll take you home gay boy" Liam winked at me
"dude you're fucking gay dont hang out with him" jason chuckled while playfully punching frank in the arm.
"im just getting rid of the faggot, don't associate me with him" Liam smiled at jason.
in this moment I began to feel my heart sink in my stomach.
"yeah whatever, just bathe yourself in bleach before you come back in my house. I dont want the disease" jason said as he picked up the solo cups from off the floor.
Liam walked over to me with laziness dripping off of him. "get up" he flicked his fingers up at me.
"I can't-"
He grabbed me by the collar of my shirt yanking me off the couch. Pure panic began to fill my body being this close to him.
He let go of my shirt and latched onto my hair causing me to yelp in pain.
"Liam you're hurting me" I tried to claw at his hands but it was useless, he was 10x stronger than me and probably more since I was drunk.
"no can do gay boy" he tilted his head to the side in a mocking matter.
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I tried to open the car door to the passenger seat but liam smacked my hand.
"gays in the back, I dont want any type of gay bacteria in my car" he said as he stuck the key into the car.
I poked the inside of my mouth questioning his ridiculous behavior.
"I mean it gay boy" he glared at me
"fine"
I threw myself in the backseat of the car out of pure frustration and exhaustion.
The whole car ride was silent, silent enough to fall asleep watching the trees pass by.
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I woke up to cold breeze hitting my bare skin. My hands skimmed over my body to find myself completely naked. I jumped up hugging my exposed body only to find liam ripping the belt off his pants.
"damn you just had to wake up right now?" he spoke out in full anger.
"liam whats going on,what are you doing?" I asked rubbing my eyes, my vision was still blurry but clear enough to see him half naked.
"turn around" he demanded me
"what-"
"TURN AROUND" he yanked my body and spun me around pinning me on the backseat of the car.
tears began to spew out of eyes as I tried to hold in my grunts of pain. His dirty filthy hands roamed every square inch of my body. The warm air from his breath hit my neck making me shiver in pure disgust. The sweat from his body dripped onto my back making me squirm under him.
I tried to fight back but he continued grabbing me and pinning me deeper into the seat. I started screaming in pure agony as his skin slapped against mine. My hands clawed at the seat trying to get away but it was no use. Eventually I just stopped trying and laid there as if my body was lifeless.
in what felt like hours he finally stopped and quickly pulled his pants back up.
"WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME-"
I was interrupted by a violent slap to my left cheek. My face began to sting with intense pain, I immediately grabbed my cheek.
"I wouldn't even touch you, you faggot. your kind disgust me, youre nothing but a fuck doll and thats all you'll ever be you useless fuck." he spat at me
I shut my eyes to keep the tears from slipping out of my eyes. I cant believe he used me for my body, he took advantage of my drunken state for his own advantage.
"dont forget you'll never be nothing in life you disgusting fuck, you're nothing but the gum under my shoe, now get the fuck out of my car and walk home"
he yanked his car door open and drove off leaving me broken and lost in the middle of a empty street.
bleh
