„𝐢 𝐥𝐞𝐟𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐜𝐫𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠
𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐬𝐡𝐞'𝐬 𝐥𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠
𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝''
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in which calivn jumps off of the school roof in an attempt to kill himself and everyone wants to know his secrets.
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dark...
everything changed within the week of niall enrolling into the prestigious southmeadow academy. even more happened within his first three months there. he had met clavin and his friends, got involved with a small movement to get a perverted professor fired and as a result was almost unrightfully failed, gone to many-a party, he had fallen in love and lost it. and possibly worst of all; he watched in horror as calvin flung himself off of the science building. the whole school frozen in complete shock as his body slammed against the pavement.
it felt wrong of him to think—when he saw calvins head split open; blood pooling out of the crack in his skull. it felt wrong of niall to be reminded of cherry pie and the roadside diner he and his friends would kill time at whenever they had it to waste.
and niall couldn't help but feel guilty, he couldn't help but feel like he was to blame for calvins' death. and he wasn't half wrong. thankfully though, calvin hadn't died, after his "stunt" his parents pulled him from the academy to stay home under their supervision. the day he went back home he left behind a letter for his friends.
it detailed things that nobody knew about him. but the letter had to be the most threatening thing he could've left behind. things nobody had known about the group of friends, horrible things they'd all done. and maybe it wasn't meant to be a threat but they for sure couldn't allow the details of the letter to get out to the rest of the academy and expose their deeds.
for two more months niall kept in contact with calvin; he was the only person calvin truly trusted at southmeadow, niall says that without him around things are starting to get even crazier especially with the letter around. over skype calvin admits;
"i was the only person keeping balance in that god forsaken place," he pauses to take a smoke of his cigarette, niall does the same. one nasty habit among many they share. "it was literally the single most stressful part of living there. i'm honestly glad to be out of there—but—i still miss the guys and all that." calvin waves a dismissive hand.
"you'll be visiting?"
"absolutely not." niall frowns at his answer. sorrow flashes across calvins' face for half a second before his neutral expression returns. "i'm sorry but i can't step foot on that campus ever again."
"though there's something you need to know." he takes a deep draw from the half smoked cigarette and continues, "since you're really the only person who i talk to now you'll need to finish up some stuff for me, some of the other guys are already in on it they've just been waiting for my say."
he keeps going. "in my old dorm you should be able to find my stash of pills, a...contact book of sorts and some money in a shoe box somewhere in my closet. just...just tell me if any of it's still there whenever you have some time to check."
"that's not sketchy at all." niall deadpans letting out a dry chuckle as he flicks the ash of his cigarette into an empty soda can. calvin smiles and laughs. he looks at niall for a long while before he speaks again. the silence isn't tense nor is it comforting, it's just a quiet moment between two men smoking cigarettes.
"yeah...yeah it's really sketchy. but please be very careful. and only let people you really know in on this. i've got to go now—it's fucking three in the morning. you should get some sleep too man."
"will we talk again, calvin?"
the older sighs, taking the very last draw of his cigarette, holding, exhaling and putting it out on his desk. he smiles, placing a hand over his face in what seemed embarrassment releasing a pained laugh.
"calvin?"
he pulls yet another cigarette out of its box, his fourth one throughout the call.
"cali?" he cringes at the nickname.
"i don't know niall, hopefully? hopefully is all i can say."
it's silent again. the men look at everything but one another, something unspoken floating through the air. they both go to say something at the same time.
"you go first." calvin allows.
"okay. i really miss you man, no homo. i hope to see you again sometime." a somber smile on nialls face as he says his final piece.
calvin nods; "be careful or else i might lose you too...please don't let me lose you." and in a panic he ends the call.
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