Sweater Weather

Chapter I

We were at Mattia's house when it all started. We had just gotten back from hanging out with the boys and were going to have a sleepover. But Mattia was in a pissy mood. And refused to tell me why. I was used to him being stubborn but I was getting a bit annoyed.

"Just tell me what's wrong Mattia it's not that hard."
"It's stupid. I shouldn't even be mad about it."
"Then don't be mad!"
"Well it's kinda fucking hard to!"
"Then tell me what's wrong!"
"I think it's pretty goddamn obvious."
"If it was obvious I wouldn't be asking."

"Fine!" He stood up suddenly. I sort of flinched. I knew he would never dare lay a hand on me, but he was a big guy and sometimes it startled me.

"I'm fucking sick and tired of you always flirting with our friends!"
"What? We always act like that!"
"Exactly!"
""You're not making any sense."
"You act like you like them!"
"I do like them!"
"No— I mean, like like them."
"Oh my god. Well. Maybe I do."
"What?"

As soon as I saw his face I regretted it. His eyes turned big and watery, like a puppy who just got kicked. In that instant I wanted to take it all back, to wrap him up in my arms and tell him that is was okay. But I didn't.

"Yeah. M-maybe I like one of them!"
"Who...?" His eyebrows knitted together. He looked pained. I felt my heart ache.
"... Alvaro." I mumbled. It was true, I had a bit of a crush on Alvaro, but no where near enough to act on it. Especially since I had Mattia.

The silence in the air was thick. At this point there were tears streaming down Mattia's cheeks. I went to hug him and tell him I was lying but he pushed me away.

"Mattia-"
"Just go."
"I wasn't-"
"I said go Kai!"

I flinched again and hurried out of the house. As I left my guilt turned into spite. He wouldn't fucking listen. And while I know now that I was in part in the wrong, at that moment I just wanted revenge.

So I went to Alvaro's house.

His sister let me in. I went up to his room somewhat confidently. He was laying on his bed, scrolling through tiktok.

"Oh hey. What's up?"
"Mattia and I got in a fight."
"Oh shit. I'm sorry man."
"He might've broken up with me."
"Oh damn. C'mere man." He shifted to make room on his bed.

Instead I went and sat on his lap. He looked up at me strangely. "Aren't you upset?"

I just leaned down and kissed him. He hesitated, obviously, but kissed back, carefully moving to put his hands on my waist.

That night I didn't once think about Mattia. I probably should have, in the morning when I woke up my phone had about a thousand notifications. All from Mattia.

Matti ❤️😫
Kai I'm sorry
Kai
Kairi
Kairi please
Kai bb I miss you
Why are you ignoring me
Did you find someone else
Did you go to Alvaro
Kairi
Kairi please respond
Kai I didn't mean it
I was overreacting
Kai please come back
Please come over
I miss you
I want to hold you
Kai please
Please don't hate me
Kai I love you
Kairi
Kairi I am in love with you.
Kai
Kai please come back
Please Kai
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
Please Kai
I'm sorry
Sorry
Sor
Sorry
Soruy
Peas cm bak
Kairi
Kairi ples
I'm sorr
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My heart broke a little. I could see when he started crying. I wanted to start crying. I felt like utter ass. I didn't mean for this to happen.

Kaikai 🥺✨😍
Hey sorry. I was with Alvaro.

I didn't see a reason to lie to him.

Mattia ❤️😫
Oh. I'm sorry. Please take me back I didn't mean to push you away like that. I still want to be with you. It's okay if you want to fuck Alvaro on the side or something.

I didn't really want that. If I'm having sex with someone I want there to be feelings behind it. My first instinct was to just go back to Mattia. It was just logical to me.

"Mmnhg... good morning..." Alvaro mumbled incoherently, moving to wrap his arms around my waist. I gulped lightly.

I didn't want to fuck him and just leave like that. That would be so fucked up. But I couldn't leave Mattia...

"Hey Aloe. Do you think it would be okay if you, me and Mattia all dated?"
"Hm?"
"I don't know what it's called. But like, we're all dating each other."
"A threesome?"
"Well. Yeah but there's like a fancy name."
"Google it dude."
"Okay."

I first texted Mattia back.

Kaikai 🥺✨😍
Would u b ok dating me and Alv

Mattia ❤️😫
?

Kaikai 🥺✨😍
It's called a polyamorous relationship
It's like a threesome
But like actually dating
Would that b ok

Mattia ❤️😫
So I would be dating you and Alvaro?

Kaikai 🥺✨😍
Not if you don't want, we could make it so I'm just dating both of u
But not u guys each other
Ykno

Mattia ❤️😫
I think that'd be ok
I mean like
All of us dating
Idk how I feel abt someone dating my bf if I'm not dating them
Idk it could be fun
If he's ok w it

"Cool. Alvaro are you cool with dating me and Mattia?"
"Oh. I mean sure! I didn't expect him to actually agree—"
"It's fine bubs. Let's go to Mattia's house."

I kissed his head and stood up. He smiled a little and got up too, grabbing pants and a shirt out of his dresser. I picked up my clothes from last night off the floor.

"Oh— you shouldn't have to wear those. Here, just take some of my clothes." He handed me a spare hoodie, and after a bit of digging, a pair of shorts that actually fit me.