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ever since i was little i have been in the shadows; i was never the centre of attention and i liked that. i liked to be by myself, alone with my thought. most people didn't acknowledge me and i was fine with that, i could go on with my life without any drama; sure it did get a bit boring at times but it was much less effort than to deal with the drama of friends, i still had myself.
it started when i was in nursery, on my first day i didn't talk to anyone as i was scared; i had never been in a room with so many people before and i was over whelmed. i walked in and just sat at a table on my own and due to the fact that i never spoke to anyone, no one spoke to me. i occupied my time with my thoughts and i did everything by myself.
this continued all throughout primary school; i was by myself at the back of the class, i didn't speak unless necessary and even when i did you could hardly hear me. i got on with my work, meaning i was getting good grades, top of my class most of the time, and my teachers always told my parents that i needed to interact with the other kids and speak up more but they didn't understand that i was happy on my own. the only disappointment i could feel was from myself and i wasn't pressured to do well by my peers.
when i got to secondary school, i was overwhelmed once again, the change in atmosphere was massive and there were many more people compared to my very small primary school. i would sit at the back of the class during lessons and do the work and at lunch i would sit, either outside next to the big tree on the field or at the back of my form room, alone. there were times when my thoughts got too much for me and i would want to just run out of school but i managed. i avoided most of the school drama and gossip, i knew that they all called me a freak as i didn't talk but i was used to it and it was my life and not theirs.
no one noticed me; i was an outsider, a castaway. i had lasted so far being anonymous, so why did it have to change?
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Short Storya girl doesn't want to be seen but she does and she doesn't know how to react
