BTS x READER :chatroom: !!DISCONTINUED!!

goodbyes !!

Hi hello how are you good thats great

I mean...I think it's pretty obvious where I'm headed with this author's note

Yes...it is true..............i know i know so sad

i am discontinuing this story

well

if you can even call it that

lemme tell you a bit about this...piece of fanfiction

at first it was all just a coping mechanism for myself

I became a fan of bts in late 2017, so around the beginning of September of that year

i decided to write this !!

i thought

''wow this is going to be great ima update every hour and ill have hundreds of readers within seconds''

obviously that didn't happen

it is true that quite a number of people have seen this fic, but i never thought that people would genuinely like it

i was 13 (!!!wtf!!!) when i started writing this

and you can easily tell by the awful jokes and attempts at comedy

every time i read this fic i cringe..............a lot

im not ashamed of the fact that this exists, nah, i'd rather actually keep it on here so that in the future i can come back to it and see how bad my sense of humour used to be

there are old bts jokes and bad references here and some are straight up weird

i fell out of writing when quarantine started and now im recently starting to love it again

the main thing is that many people don't agree with me on a certain topic

well, they might, but deep down they crave something else

and that is the entire bts x y/n agenda

i don't mind platonic things, hell i don't even mind some romance, but i feel sorry for people who are given false hope about 'having a chance' with their idol

that's why I wrote this in the first place

because I also craved that

I craved affection and love, because I wasn't getting enough of it from my real life surroundings

bts were those people that helped me, they pulled me out of a dark place and wrapped me up in a blanket and then sung me to sleep

i read fanfiction, a lot of it, but i can never really....imagine it????????

like, why im mentioning this is bc when i wrote that first chapter, i wrote it with the intention that the reader will end up with a bts member in the end

and then as time passed i realised i had no plot, no actual direction where to go with the story and i strongly believed it was boring

i still see this entire fic as just a way to pass time, not to actually read passionately

if you do, then my god, thank you, im very flattered

but the thing is, if i used to see bts as somebody to love romantically and i imagined that they would be the bEsT boYfrIeNdS eVer

then now i just crave to be a friend, just a fan even

just support them like they supported me

so that's why im discontinuing this

because it would get boring

i am extremely hard on myself with everything i post and i cant live with the thought that i have fanfiction on here that isn't satisfactory to me

so instead of stressing about when i will update, I've decided to stop updating

I'm deeply sorry that I didn't write this sooner and some people truly hoped I would continue this

but dude

I feel like it's time to move on yknow

''If you love me let me goooooooooooooooooooooooooo''

and im really grateful for the experience i got from this

im glad for the overwhelming support and comments

I'm glad I could make people smile

you can unfollow me and leave a comment

but please consider that this wasn't that easy of a decision for me

anyways stream daechwita by our one and only yoongles and stay healthy and take care of yourselves!! 

if anybody has more specific questions about the origin of me writing this or wants deeper explanation 

then comment and I hope I will be able to provide an answer

alright

byebye

thank you for being on this journey with me