𝙁𝙐𝙂𝙄𝙏𝙄𝙑𝙀 » 𝙠. 𝙗𝙖𝙠𝙪𝙜𝙤𝙪

18

"why should I apologize for being a monster, when nobody apologized for turning me into one."

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(y/n)'s pov

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I learned that my brother is in a safe place now and no one can ever hurt him there. I was relieved to know that.

But in the condition that I can no longer see him. It was cruel but if it is for his safety, then I will surrender to that.

It took me almost four months to recover and they said they will have me interrogated for what happened in the coliseum.

The day Kaito-nii and I were destined to fight until one of us dies was also the day when the heroes raid the place under Hawks' lead. I learned that after hearing it from the nurses who are in their shifts to take care of me.

The children from the auction house were also saved and was safely returned to their families. All of the gladiators from the coliseum were saved and most of them ended in tartarus, too.

And after I got discharged of the hospital, I was brought to Tartarus and in that place, I was interrogated for hours and hours that it almost drove me crazy.

But they said that if I cooperate with the heroes, they will surely protect my brother and give him all the things that he needed. I had no choice but to cooperate.

They asked everything, from our very beginning until how we reached the coliseum. I admitted everything. Even the killings, but I never once told them anything about my brother's because that is in order to protect him, i will admit all the crimes we were forced upon.

I am supposed to locked up in Tartarus until I age 45, but that fact was rather okay to me, since even if I'm imprisoned, my brother is still safe and he'll never starve again.

That is my plan all along, but not until I heard the guards talking outside my cell.

"The real mastermind behind all the coliseum incident and the auction house is unknown, yet." and once again, i thought it was all over. I thought we ended it but I was wrong.

"I heard Hawks the other day, he said that it is possible that he had other places like coliseums and their operation is still on the run. Villains would pay shitload of money just to keep his business running." my knees weakened. if that was the case then being separated from my brother isn't going to keep him safe.

The real culprits are still out there. And they might know who was the real culprits behind my family's deaths. And that was the final straw. If I find them, I will slice open their necks and make them chew their guts.

Later that night, I escaped Tartarus and went all around Japan, challenging bosses to a fight and owning their turfs. I want to own as many men as possible in order to catch the mastermind.

I worked my way to become one of Japan's notorious villains, owning the most turfs and leading one of the largest trading company of smuggled goods. Been in and out of Tartarus for thousand times and I've been relying on my strength alone just to get where I am right now.

Though I am not at par with the league of villains, I have watched them work from the sidelines and did not involved myself with them nor associate with them. Though I was once acquainted with Shigaraki because of our exchange of information about heroes, but that was all there to it.

Jack of all trades.

In the span of few years of reigning ever since I first broke out of prison, i felt empty. I was mindlessly running around the battlefield with no leads about the masterminds behind everything. It was as if I'm an empty vessel, I had everything in my hands - money, power, brains and connection but I was still empty.

I hated heroes. I hated villains. I had nothing nor no one to trust but myself. My dark past is still clinging onto me and it gave me nothing but nightmares. My past was a wound that could never heal even after a long time. It will forever haunt me and I will forever regret of living.

My existence alone is an abomination. I hated my past as much as I hated myself. I can't protect no one. Not even my brother, Kaito-nii.

That is why in order to atleast keep him safe, I never stepped a foot near the place where they took Kaito-nii. I never once attempted to go near him or other villains or heroes might hurt him.

I kept on clinging into the past so that I have a reason to live. I want to avenge my family and keep my brother safe. I am selfishly aiming for something beyond and I can't still see the end of it.

The longer I dance with my demons, the longer I stay in hell.

I can no longer count with my fingers how many people I've caused harm, whether they're villains or heroes. Why did I ended up being a villain? Or why was I a victim in this world's cruelty in the first place?

But I forgot about my agony when I first fought with Bakugou. He never saw me as a weakling. He saw through my pain and instead of giving me his sympathy, he fought me with all of his strength.

He never looked down of me which most heroes did to me as they tried to catch me. He is someone I hated and respected. I hated him because he is a hero like those guys, but I respected him because he was not like them.

Katsuki Bakugou was my light. It sounded funny but I was so drawn into him. Whenever I fight him, it makes me forget about my past. I just had fun being around him even though he gets so riled up just by seeing my face.

And now that he's being accused of something he never did, it made me feel like he was like me. I realized that.

I know how hard it is to be blamed for something you never did. I know how does it feel to be helpless. And maybe I got so attached to him that I was willing to go out my way to help him.

I don't want him to go through all the things i've been through. I want him to see the world that I see with my own eyes, but I don't want to lose someone I respect. Maybe that is why, I subconsciously extended my hands to him.

"maybe...i also want to save him from this cruel world."

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(a/n: end of pov, we'll be back at the present time after this chapter!♡)