Through My Eyes

My Thoughts Spill Over

My thoughts are to big to fit inside the tiny walls of my brain

They push and rip, trying to escape

Leaving me with a constant headache

My mind is too big of a place.

A place where evil hides in the shadows, and the shadows are everywhere

I got lost in my thoughts

I take rabbit trails down to places I never intended to go

I'm lost inside a maze i designed.

I'm lost inside a maze that the world has altered

Its a maze without end

With monsters and traps

I feel so tiny within my own thoughts

Like you're zooming out click by click by click

Until it looks like what the scientists do to the universe

It starts with a planet

Zoom out

A solar system

Zoom out

A galaxy

Zoom out, zoom out, zoom out

Until you're look at five billion galaxies shoved together

And you've lost sight of where you were

You're so tiny in the scheme of things

So what's the point

I feel like I'm stuck under the tide

Like waves crash over me every chance they get

Overwhelming me with their power

And I only get a very small chance to inhale oxygen

Until they crash over me, stealing the air from my lungs

And replacing it with water

The cold savage water that thrashes inside you

That tears at the walls of your very being

The kind of water that freezes you to the bone

It makes you forget what warmth ever felt like

It makes you loose yourself

But I already lost myself

I lost myself to my thoughts

Completely ripped apart by the wolves of my brain

Laying on the cold snow

Looking at the blood pumping out of me

They're eating me alive

No chance at an easy death

I'm completely helpless to save myself

Yet I stare in fascinations as their teeth dig into me

And then the pain ends.

Just for one second

And I see Hope

I see her standing there trying to save me

She was here too. She knows how I feel

But she doesn't know that I can't let her help me

Because I'm already engulfed in my brain

I'm already lost

My thoughts have filled my soul

My thoughts spill over