Daily Life as a Werewolf

12-21-14

8:45am

I'm so sorry for not posting but I had a heck of a week. It's funny how people change and how they can hurt you in more ways than one.

Anyways, lately has been rough. Idk who I am anymore. One moment someone tells me I'm a therian the next they are spewing at me that they lied and I'm a good for nothing human. And everyone says "you'll feel it deep inside wether you're a therian or not". Well here's the thing. I don't feel human but I don't feel human either. So I'm kinda lost haha.

Im gunna compile a big message about my therianish-maybe experiences. Then may be you can judge if I am or not.

The most profound one would be last year when I got sick. I was in the hospital, needing breathing tubes sick. So I asked Kettu if he could ask his spirit guide what was going on. He returned and said "oh kenai is testing you" and immediately when he said that i got better instantly. Being sick a week to being perfectly fine in 10 mins. Bit strange right?

Now ill explain dreams.
I had one a long time ago. It was at my favourite house. My parents were yelling at me to get inside. Thete was a bear circling the house. I wanted to stay out to meet it. Then I woke up. Next one: i was at my current house. My whole family was over. And we saw this big black dog like creature over in the field. We all scurried to get inside. But the odd part was the animal wasny aware of us. Until I flicked my flip flop with ease and it hit him. Now the flip flop traveled prolly 1/2 to a full mile to hit this wolf I assume. Then he came towards the house and my family kept him out. Then i woke up. Next one. I was at my current house. There was a town warning of a big black dog reaping havoc on the town. So we went along our property making a barrier so the dog couldnt get in. But as we were working the dog approached. Big and black as night. It leaped over the barrier and was coming right at me as I woke up. Next one. My mom and me where on a scouts camping trip when we heard a pack of wolves or coyote surround the camp. We all started running towards safety. And I volunteered to stay back to let everyone escape to safety. The pack hit me and devoured me. But the strange part was after thwy ate me I was a pile of TALKING bones. Then i woke up. Ok last dream I can remember thats possibly therian related. It was my current house and it was a dark and stormy night. My family was there. And so was cassie. The girl I met who said I was a therian. I was hiding under my bed with A knife when my mom came to get me and said "jake you need to defend us". So I came out and there was this HUGE wolf outside my house. I mean bigger than my house big. With a ton of regular sized wolves. Cassie and I were standing back to back when they all burst through the windows and as they did I shifted into a wolf and woke up.
Those are all the dreams I can think of that may be a hint towards therianthropy.

Whenever I meet animals they are scared of me. Tuck their tails, ears back and the growl and bark at me. Whereas they just approach everyone else all friendly. Except my grandma who I think her husband(my grandpa) was a therian. Anyways after i get on the ground and they grow bold enough to approach me, they love me to death anf do not leave my side. Happens with EVERY animal. Especially dogs.

Then the last thing I can think of is that I dont fit in at school or with a certain group of friends or with my family. I feel detached and different than everyone.

Thats all the info I got. If you could please help me that'd be great. Thank you.

I'm not sure what I am or who I am. I've been looking into other kin, therian, Wicca. All I know is I'm not a human and I really want to know the true me.

To those of you who are interested in my crush. We hung out on Friday and are going to an old Native American site to do science work. I plan on asking her out! So wish me luck!!!!

~Kezaway~