The silence suffocates me (Deaf Bakugo)

Chapter 1 - The Realisation

!Warning! swearing and violence

I sit in my dorm room as I sob quietly. I just got back from training and I can't hear yet again. I'm starting to get really worried, this keeps happening and its worse every time I use my quirk. It was originally just for 5 seconds after the explosion but I finished training 10 minutes ago and my hearing is only just starting to come back. It's deteriorating quicker than I could have ever anticipated but I'm reluctant to get hearing aids until everything sounds a little quieter all the time.

Right now, I can still hear everything at its normal volume but if one day, I can't hear everything as loud as it normally is, then I will talk to someone about hearing aids. But I'm not at that stage yet so for now, I will hide my secret and just deal with it. I dread the day I am forced to use them, they are big and bulky. I'm so not ready to admit to the world that I'm going deaf but I have to at some point...

My hearing is still a little of from training so I throw a beanie on and wonder to the common area to find Kiri and Mina playing cards on the couch and Kami and Sero being gay while on facetime to Shinsou. I don't know how they ended up friends but they did. I honestly kinda ship those three... which says something because I don't often ship people together... I see Kiri look towards me and his mouth moves but I only hear a mutter. I turn around and walk into the kitchen to grab a glass of water.

I feel a hand on my shoulder and I turn around to meet Kiri with a slightly worried look on his face, so thats what the mumbling was. I try to read his lips while focusing on what he is saying. ''Hey- shouting you for- you didn't respond.'' was all I could get but it was enough. He had been shouting me but I wasn't responding. ''I'm ignoring you EXTRA!'' I shout before barging past him and running to my dorm. I lean against my door and slide down it as I curl my legs into my chest.

I begin to sob uncontrollably, Kiri is my best friend and I hate that I had o shout at him but how else could I explain me not responding, ''I'm sorry, can't hear you right now, ask me again in and hour~'' I roll my eyes and scoff as I attempt to stand up and lock the door. I stumble into the bathroom. My hand shakes as I reach for a small box in my cabinet. I pull out a box cutter, a completely normal thing to have so no one would question if they found it. However, I don't use the box cutter to open boxes, I use it to cut myself.

To watch the blood trickle down my arm as the pain shoots the opposite way. 

Selfish *cut*

Cruel *cut*

Bully *cut*

Gay *cut*

Heartless *cut*

Villain *cut*

I watch as the blood trickles don my arm as it starts to feel numb. I can't feel the pain anymore which is fucking bullshit because I just sliced my arm to shreads but whatever. I clean the cuts, there must be about 15 there, not including my scars. That's a lot more than normal, I need to be more careful. *splash* At least I can hear clearly now. Nearly 12 minutes, I really should speak to someone. I wrap the cuts and put my arm compression sleeves on, I wear these a lot after training so it isn't too unusual to see me wearing them.

I unlock my door and head down to the common area to see Kiri and Mina cuddling on the couch with Kami and Sero, I don't know when Shinsou got here but he is cuddled up to Kami and they have a film on. I feel so jealous but I know I have no chance with Kiri, I can feel tears threatening to fall so i wipe my eyes before walking over to the couch and sitting on the floor in front of them. They take up so much god damn space.

I feel a soft hand fall onto my head and begin to play with my hair, I don't have the effort to shout so I just let who ever it is play with my hair. After about 5 minutes, I decide to look up, ''Why are you playing with my hair dickweed- oh... Kiri?'' I'm surprised to see Kiri is the one playing with my hair. He smiles brightly, showing off his shark teeth and I just turn around with a ''tsskk, whatever!''