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𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃.

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So, let me just give you a little background to my relationship with this beautiful girl - near the end of January 2018, you know that my relationship with this other girl had just ended but it left me in a dark space but you helped me through that & then I got into another relationship a few weeks later in February as a distraction to get over the first person but that obviously didn't last due to a certain somebody getting cheated on but eh, to each their own. 

Anywho, at the end of Year 10 around June, you were all I could think about & it was strange to me because I kept asking myself if I truly did like you or if it was just one of those lesbian phases where you're attracted to your best friend because after all, it's your best friend? But then I realised that I really did develop deep feelings for you, but you know, you were straight so that made it so much worse when it came to me being around you because I was so scared of losing you.

So, let's skip to summer where it's the end of Year 10 & we're about to transition to Year 11 - I'm in Los Angeles, California & you're in London, United Kingdom which according to Google is around 8000 kilometres away from each other & the UK is +8 hours ahead but this is all irrelevant information but what I'm trying to say is that despite how far we are from another & what time it is, we've always been there for each other - we had our late night calls, our consistent victory royales on Fortnite to the point where we got tired of winning & so on, all of those moments really made me come to the realisation that I had feelings for you & it was finally in August of 2018 that I told you I had feelings for you, risking our friendship for a relationship was one of the most scariest moments of my life because I honestly do not want to lose you ever so thank you for staying with me despite you rejecting me & being confused about your feelings but like you say, hard to get & I like the challenge.

Once I arrived back in London, I asked if you wanted to hang out at Westfield which by the way, totally wasn't scary seeing as it was our first time physically being with each other since admitting my feelings for you but that did't matter because the day was truly perfect & you looked beautiful, from head to toe. 

Skip to September & you finally tell me that you like me back which I really couldn't believe but you know how I am with the meaning or anything so we didn't make it official & instead, we waited till the 1st of October for me to ask you to be my girlfriend & I remember that entire moment too, you had geography & I had history - I had the whole day to tell you but I waited till the end of lunch/the start of period 5 to ask you about my feelings which resulted to us being late but I walked into my lesson with the biggest grin on my face that my class really could tell how happy I was & we already had people think we were dating but wow, it came true.